[Ardmore]

Around when I was 13 and 14, my mom was told I should see a T because I told my gym teacher I tried to kill myself over the weekend, so I went to my first T session and it wasn't to bad but I didn't tell her anything because I knew or I thought that she would tell her but at one moment I told her of the physical abuse from my brother, I told her everything

She said she wouldn't tell anyone and that I was safe but in later that week, I knew she lied, I got off my school bus with a pissed out older brother yelling at and calling a ****ing tattletale and a dumbass, he was worst then ever.

He would grab me by my hair and smash my face on the floor, he would twist my arm till I cried for mercy, he would call me a outcast and a weirdo and a ****ing freak.

I then went to another T session, I was determined to not tell the T anything but she made me draw pictures instead, pictures of my mom and dad, my house, and myself.

After that, I went home and I was told me about my pictures.
They said because I drew the people so small meant that people were not important to me, and the way I drew the roof of the house meant that I was afraid to be home, and the way I drew myself meant that I wish to die.
all was ********

Then my 2nd first, the first time I tried to SI after I heard that from my mom.

I told my sister that I tried to cut myself, I asked her to not tell mom.
She said she wouldn't but then way did I have the feeling that she was lying to me.

I got yelled at again just because I wanted to die because the people around me gave me no reason to live.
It seems I can't trust my own so-called family with my secrets

[Can't Stop Crying]

Ardmore - you are very brave in letting this out..I'm here for you!

[Sannah]

[darkfoxx]

I wish I had someone to talk to about my abuse. I have a history of suicide attempts. Just understand that you have a lifetime of experiences ahead of you, even though you had such a hard time these events can make you a stronger person. I think your sister does care about you the way I see it she was looking out for you. I wish you a lifetime of happiness.

I don't understand why people would yell at you just because you tried to hurt yourself? Wouldn't they be more concerned than angry.. I guess people don't understand these days. I remember my mum knew about my self harm and she was angry at me and she told me I was a weirdo and she said it was sick what I done.

[Ardmore]

Originally Posted by happycheeks

I don't understand why people would yell at you just because you tried to hurt yourself? Wouldn't they be more concerned than angry.. I guess people don't understand these days. I remember my mum knew about my self harm and she was angry at me and she told me I was a weirdo and she said it was sick what I done.

Your mother is the sick one, not you.

Just because someone SI doesn't change the persons heart IMO
but thank you all the same

Originally Posted by Ardmore

Your mother is the sick one, not you.

Just because someone SI doesn't change the persons heart IMO
but thank you all the same

You're right. SI is a way of coping I guess.. Hugs for you too