[suzzie]

was supposed to have t yesterday. but didnt. was my fault. i didnt check me email. but that was because i emailed t the day before to check if appointment was ok. and she said it was. so i didnt think i needed to check the next day. but i realize now i should check anyway. also i keep my phone off when driving. shouldnt do that either. and i left early for t too. so i did a bunch of wrong things. she had emailed me very early to change appointment. but i didnt check email before leaving. and she tried to phone me. but i had the phone off. so she did the right things. i just missed them. i showed for appointment and missed note on the door somehow. sat there alone for awhile. there were other people in the distance. maybe a t and client. but after about 30 minutes i realized something was wrong. thought maybe i had the wrong day. and decided to leave. thats when i noticed a note to call t. turns out her daughter was having her baby the same day and time as my appointment. what makes it hard is that this appointment was to be a bump up from the original next week. because it was too far off. (a month) we were going to talk about csa stuff. now i guess its not too far anyway. i know the baby is huge. and i didnt get mad or sound upset or anything. i didnt want to ruin her day. i said it was all fine and can wait. im not sure how i really feel about it. i thought i was doing the right thing moving the appointment up. and thought i could see t two times this month. instead of once. now it will be once. taught me i shouldnt ask for nothing. because i wont get it anyway. just look stupid.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by suzzie

taught me i shouldnt ask for nothing. because i wont get it anyway. just look stupid.

Good for you for asking, good for you for coming here when you didn't get what you wanted and surviving and making yourself feel better, getting by with a little help from your friends? You couldn't do that when you were that before when you were in trouble, and you did feel stupid then and learned your lesson then; but today it's time for a new lesson. How clever and brave of you to state what you did; a lesson for us all.
(((((((suzzie)))))))

[Mediator]

Originally Posted by suzzie

was supposed to have t yesterday. but didnt. was my fault. i didnt check me email. but that was because i emailed t the day before to check if appointment was ok. and she said it was. so i didnt think i needed to check the next day. but i realize now i should check anyway. also i keep my phone off when driving. shouldnt do that either. and i left early for t too. so i did a bunch of wrong things. she had emailed me very early to change appointment. but i didnt check email before leaving. and she tried to phone me. but i had the phone off. so she did the right things. i just missed them. i showed for appointment and missed note on the door somehow. sat there alone for awhile. there were other people in the distance. maybe a t and client. but after about 30 minutes i realized something was wrong. thought maybe i had the wrong day. and decided to leave. thats when i noticed a note to call t. turns out her daughter was having her baby the same day and time as my appointment. what makes it hard is that this appointment was to be a bump up from the original next week. because it was too far off. (a month) we were going to talk about csa stuff. now i guess its not too far anyway. i know the baby is huge. and i didnt get mad or sound upset or anything. i didnt want to ruin her day. i said it was all fine and can wait. im not sure how i really feel about it. i thought i was doing the right thing moving the appointment up. and thought i could see t two times this month. instead of once. now it will be once. taught me i shouldnt ask for nothing. because i wont get it anyway. just look stupid.

You are not sure how you really felt about it. I think you were upset. It does not matter that you did not check e-mail or you had switch off your mobile..

[suzzie]

this is hard..........

[suzzie]

i realized this shouldnt have ever bothered me. i had the wrong additude. sorry.

[jwabf]

Originally Posted by suzzie

i realized this shouldnt have ever bothered me. i had the wrong additude. sorry.

Of course it bothers you. It would bother me too. Just because both of you did the right things...that includes you because being early is good and not answering the phone while driving is good....it doesn't mean that you dont get to have your feelings. There is nothing wrong with feeling hurt. But you were certainly not stupid. You know in your head she was being reasonable...the baby and her daughter came first that day...but you still get to feel whatever you feel. And yes...good for you for coming here and telling us how you felt.

[suzzie]

i agree completely with this 100%.....

the baby and her daughter came first that day

it was just an appointment. the feelings are wrong. i dont want them.

[Sannah]

Suzzie, your feelings are not wrong - they just are what they are. Of course you would feel dissapointed about not getting your appt. You have gotten things that you have asked for with this T. Please don't stop asking for things.

[suzzie]

i emailed her about a new appointment this morning. but she hasnt answered yet.i think somethings wrong or something. she asked me what days i had friday night. she doesnt answer on weekends. so i waited till today. she should of answered by now normally for an appointment schedule. especially since she said she wanted to reschedule for this week. but i really dont think this week is going to happen.