[tigersassy]

Is there something wrong with me? I think my brother (abuser)'s girlfriend is pregnant, and I'm jealous......... WTF is wrong with me? Eugh.... I hate this crap so much....

[shezbut]

What part of you is jealous?

What exactly are you jealous of? The gf being pregnant, and not you? Your brother having a baby and are you imagining the baby being treated like a baby is supposed to be treated ~ with safe love and care? Why can't you have your brother's love and actual care?

I can see lots of thoughts and feelings that might pop up. Those that I mentioned are understandable (to me, since they popped in my head). I think that you should write down specifically what you're thinking and feeling, and bring it to your T to discuss. They would certainly have a lot more insight and understanding of how to help you work through times like these.

Gentle hugs sent your way.

[Sannah]

I was thinking that you desperately want your brother to love you instead of abuse you?

If he has been sexually abusing you I would think that maybe you developed normal feelings, like anyone would, for a sexual partner?

[Open Eyes]

It could also mean that you are jealous that your brother is moving along with his life and the girlfriend has a normal (maybe) relationship with him as you were abused. You have been effected by the abuse as you were the victim.

You do have to look into it with your therapist. Let us know how you make out.
You have to be honest with yourself and do make a list of your own feelings about it.

Open Eyes

[tigersassy]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

It could also mean that you are jealous that your brother is moving along with his life and the girlfriend has a normal (maybe) relationship with him as you were abused. You have been effected by the abuse as you were the victim.

You do have to look into it with your therapist. Let us know how you make out.
You have to be honest with yourself and do make a list of your own feelings about it.

Open Eyes

currently i don't have a therapist, and i'm not sure why i'm jealous. it makes me sick to even think about it so i haven't been analyzing it.... am kindda afraid to. but i don't know i don't really want to go back to therapy.... especially over something like this because i can see it getting me put in the hospital. not to mention my old therapist retired and i don't really want to go back to the same place because they didn't really help anything other than for me to have someone to talk to..... eugh.....

[cin1]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

Is there something wrong with me? I think my brother (abuser)'s girlfriend is pregnant, and I'm jealous......... WTF is wrong with me? Eugh.... I hate this crap so much....

maybe it is the pregnant idea , wanting to be... take some time, think on something else, something nice. cin1

[cin1]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

currently i don't have a therapist, and i'm not sure why i'm jealous. it makes me sick to even think about it so i haven't been analyzing it.... am kindda afraid to. but i don't know i don't really want to go back to therapy.... especially over something like this because i can see it getting me put in the hospital. not to mention my old therapist retired and i don't really want to go back to the same place because they didn't really help anything other than for me to have someone to talk to..... eugh.....

the first time i was hospitalized, (age 17), my mother wrote the dr. about grandad molesting me. the dr. brought it out in group, i was horrified, besides being ill. any ways, had to discuss all of that, over and over. hope you do what is best for you. face the pain, quickly, like pulling off a band-aid. the quicker you do it, the less it hurts. cin1

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

i don't know i don't really want to go back to therapy.... because i can see it getting me put in the hospital.

not to mention my old therapist retired and i don't really want to go back to the same place because they didn't really help anything other than for me to have someone to talk to..... eugh.....

If you are in a place where you think you could be hospitalized I would think that you need therapy. The icons that you chose indicate that therapy would be helpful to you also.