[Ardmore]

I took it and it said I'm most likely to have PTSD, at first I thought it was glitchy but I read alittle about PTSD and I have a few questions.

It said that someone is likely to have this disorder when the person experiences a trumatic or shocking events in their life either its emotional, sexual, or physical.

To think back, I remember witnessing my mother having sex with her boyfriend who treated me and my brother like he was the real father but he was a major ****, I told my mother many times how I didn't like him, told her all the time he treat me terribly so to see that I think scarred me very deep.

I also remember waking up in the morning to yelling and swearing from my mom, she would yell at me and my brother for no reason, I don't even remeber what she was *****ing about but she would come into our rooms and wreck our rooms, flipping over the mattress, breaking glass, throwing our clothing everywhere until we left for school.

I remeber when I was in my early teens, when I woke up to my ***** of a sister having sex with the man she said herself he ruined the last 3-4 years of her life, I just laid there pretending to be a sleep while I just hope my niece wouldn't wake up to see it (we all slept in the same room), to see that made me hate her for as long as I live.

My brother would beat the **** out of me since I was 13 till I was 17, call me fatass, stupid ****, taking credit for making my life better when he made it a living hell, grabing my hair and smashing it on the ground, threating to hurt me seriously if I didn't do what he say.

So, what do you think?

[phoenix7]

yes it sounds like those events could cause PTSD - are you safe now?

PTSD doesnt have to be form one event it can be cumulative- mine was -

I am so sorry for all that you experienced - i hope you are safe now and are seeing a T to help you get through this

sitting and listening if you need to talk

P7

[Sannah]

As soon as I started reading your post I thought of your brother. His abusive treatment could cause PTSD (on top of your mom's tantrums which would be scary too).

[Ardmore]

My life has taken a turn for the better but I feel angry all the time though but its all good.

phoenix7-Thank you for your concern

[Ardmore]

Originally Posted by Sannah

As soon as I started reading your post I thought of your brother. His abusive treatment could cause PTSD (on top of your mom's tantrums which would be scary too).

I'm surpised you still remember that thread I made sometime ago, but yes i would think so too.

[Sannah]

When a person finally gets to a safe place the anger can come out because it is finally safe to allow. I'm sure you have years of anger that you had to just stuff.