Why are my peers so hurtful to me</3

When I was younger I always used to be in my own world. I never paid attention to reality because I used to be a day-dreamer and I used to always picture myself as a successful and heroic person. However in reality, I wanted to have lots of fun and have many companions. A lot of the "cool" people from my school used to talk to me often (I don't know if they were serious or if they were joking around). So I thought they liked me and I decided to fit in with them. Fitting in with them also made me feel more positive about myself because they are considered to be "cool" and being in their group made me "cool" as well. But since I tried acting like them in order to be in their group, they would make fun of me, and would end up eventually insulting me by calling me "fat", "ugly", "stupid", "annoying", "you have no friends", and "you are worthless, and no one cares for you."
I had to deal with this for about 4 years. People always thought I was worthless and they never cared for me and never even thought of the fact that I am a human being who has feelings too. What really confuses me is, if they ended up making fun of me and hurting my feelings in the end, then why the hell would they come up and talk with me in the first place???! Now that's just stupid of them. They would always insult me behind my back and act really hurtful. They would also spread evil rumors about me behind my back as well.
Until today, this still angers me to death, and I wanna get back to them and knock their brains out. They have caused enough harm for me to be extremely mad at them. Now that I live in a new town, this is a disadvantage because suppose if I never saw them ever again, how do I get my damn revenge?
They deserve hell, all because of what they have done to me, and I am ready any day to give them a dosage of that.
They made me feel like I am worthless, unimportant, a loner, not special, a loser, a failure, and I can't even look at myself in the mirror whenever I feel this way about myself. T__T

So what do I do next? How do I get my revenge? I can't help it, this is making me SUPER ANGRY!

Hi SHappiness, welcome to PC. My personal opinion, revenge is never the way to go. That will tarnish your soul IMO. I'm sorry that that happened to you. I would suggest investing your time in your healing and building your self worth. This is building positive instead of negative. The negative won't do you any good. Please continue to keep us posted on how you are doing okay?

i would be pissed too, but don't get revenge, it's not worth your percious time to deal with a bunch of losers!

your a good person, there the ones with problems not you.

your too good for them to be friends with them.

your the only one with a heart and soul while they walk around with anger, and talk about the insecurities they have!

being cool, is you, thats what your all about!

trust me when i say this, cuz i was in your shoes MANY years ago, the "cool" ones ALWAYS end up being dead beats as adults, cuz they can't cope with reality.

their spouse ends up divorcing them, they get fat, bald, and the friends they had in hs and college are GONE!

True true it will. But what I mean by revenge is proving that I am the successful one and they are losers using the natural approach. I don't want to insult them or cause harm to them physically. I just want them to know that I am the winner and they are the big low-life losers. I want to know how I can do that.
Everyone says I am mature and I make the best choices for myself and I care so much about school while a lot of these people who were mean to me would not care about anything, would to drugs and get drunk and would lose their virginity at such a young and clueless age.
I just want to show them that I am a better person. I want to create a mind-altering change in their lives. But how...

Thank you, that's really true! If only they knew this, I want to know how to break this down to them. I really want to know how though...

Seeking Happiness,

The most important thing for you to do is work on your own life and self improvement.

Dont worry about revenge, the attitudes of these other people, they are truely their own worst enemies, you cannot do any more harm to them than they will do to themselves, believe me, they are the ones headed for rocky roads and rude awakenings.

Open Eyes

You're right, maybe I'll just relax and find some hobby that will interest me

It only matters what YOU think of you and it sounds like you're a good, smart person who has people who do value your worth. I suggest focusing on what you have, the good things in life rather than letting these losers live rent-free in your head. It helps to understand as well that people who say hurtful things to others are that way because they're screwed up. They're in a lot of pain.

We learn in life how to go towards the light instead of the dark, how to maximize the good and let the bad go. Everyone has had experiences with sick people who want to inflict pain ... be very happy you're not like that as a person -- their opportunities for happiness are quite limited.

Thank you

It won't work. Trying to convince others of most things doesn't work. It is a waste of time. Maybe you just need to express your anger? How about writing a letter to them expressing your feelings and then burning it?

I aree with what some other people have said, revenge gets you no where. I remember a saying I heard growing up that I believe in and hold close to me to this day- It's not verbatim, but bacally it's this: Hate is like a poison. It slowly rots away a person's inside, and in the end the person who dolds hate for another is the the one who loses.
Being able to move past this anger and heal will be a tremendous feat. It may not seem possible today, but with therapy/support and some good tools, you'll slowly get there. Try meditaion and breathing exercises. Maybe even write a list of all your positive attributes and how much better off you are now that they're no longer in your life, etc. I know you can do it!