[Little Me]

The title says it. I'm feeling hopeless. I've been in therapy 3 years. Love my therapist and I know I've made progress in speaking and trusting (at least her) but I don't see how this is all going to come together and I won't feel so worthless and so used.

[shezbut]

As time passes, you will have consistently gone to therapy & worked hard at understanding yourself, the effect which the abuse has had on you, you will also have developed some methods of reassurance.

In my experience, certain aspects of my life have become easier to talk about and generally accept. I am still working through a few others, but I can see that I have improved a lot since I began many years ago. At that time of my life, I was in complete denial and still being abused. I can't say that anymore. I've pushed those who bring me down out of my life, for my safety. That's improvement.

Some days and/or nights are still very difficult at times. But, not every day. Instead, it comes in phases of drama. There are ups and downs, kind of extreme...but that's me and I still need to work on a few techniques to make things easier for me.

There is hope ~ it just takes time and work. Gentle hugs to you...

[Sannah]

So you have made progress with speaking and trusting, great! What do you want to work on now with her?

[Little Me]

So hard. Felt too bad to come even here last night.
I don't know how I'm going to start this day but I am.
I was at the bottom for so many hours seeking and searchng for help, for someone to hold me or care about me. I did get a call from my therapist and that helped, she told me to go home and try to get comfortable and safe. I tried that and it helped take some of the edge.
I'm scared.

[Sannah]

Working through the past is hard. We will support you here. Good work reaching out to your T.