Crisis Plan

Yesterday I was told it would be a good idea to make a crisis plan. The lows have been getting lower. I agree about the plan I just don't want to share it with spouse because I'm embarrassed. I wait to go home until I feel better so this would be a surprise to him that I even need it. Ugh....
Any ideas? Maybe not about the spouse but is a crisis plan important? Will it help me?

I have no experience with crisis plans however I'm sorry to hear you need one

here crisis plans are papers that have your own wishes on them /what you are willing to do in an emergency and what you want to happen in an emergency.

for example mine says

in a possible overdose (I tend to forget whether or not I have taken my meds and have on occasion re taken my meds not knowing I had already done so) I consent to being taken to the ER and then placed for observation.

in a possible death situaiton I consent to my wife being contacted, who will then contact those that need to be contacted.

in an emergency on the job I consent to my wife being called who will then call my treatment providers if needed.

as you can see my wife is who I have designated as my emergency rep. I dont want my wife to find out in other ways that Im in crisis phase. that would hurt her more than if I killed her myself. besides hurting her not having her contacted would be like saying I hate you, I dont love you and go to heck...slap in the face. I would never want to "surprise someone with my suicide or overdose. I think about how I would react if one of my friends didnt tell me they were having a hard time and then bam the next day they are dead... just not the way I do things.

on the papers you dont have to put your husband first. one of my emergency plan questions asked for a relative other than my wife. instead of a relative I placed a friends name and on the side wrote in (like a brother to me.) I didnt put it that way because I dont want my family to know, I put it that way because my family doesnt live here in the same town as I do, the quickest route possible I was thinking because in my fully on track frame of mind I know I do not want to commit suicide or harm myself. contracts and crisis plans are supposed to reflect what you want during your all together frame of mind not your mentally ill judgement that is affected by the mental illness. kind of like a will says "I am of sound mind and this is my last will and testiment" if someone can prove Im not in my right mind when I drew up the paper then that will justify anyone breaking what I have placed down on that paper, and going against my wishes by placing me in a hospital name for which I stated I did not want to be in or people contacted for which was not on the list.. anything possible can go wrong. So I placed my wishes according to what I want when I am in "sound" mind, not my bad judgement decisions of when my mental illness is affecting my choices.

Having a plan ahead of time is always a good idea because when you are in crisis your thinking is not good at all. Sounds like you are trying to hide things from your spouse? You must be used to hiding things?

I hide things yes. People don't know how hard things are. Haven't made a plan yet and I'm scared to ask about it because I don't want her to think I'm being dramatic. I do trust and respect my T, she is awesome but I still don't feel comfortable talking a lot. I'm doing better and has been a better week. Maybe now would be a time to bring it up, but then it almost seems silly because I'm ok right now.

I'm glad that you are making progress. Good work! Talking will get easier the more you do it. Continue to keep us posted on how you are doing?

Thanks Sannah.
Have been feeling better all week and then there was today. Not horrible but so blah and didn't want to do anything and wanted to sleep. Can't with 2 teenage daughters, puppy and husband around all day. Not it's night and I hope I can. Didn't want to read, watch tv, football, go for a walk, nothing. I have a good book but can't read it. I think some people call it depression. I made myself go for a run. That helped but it was scary because it was starting to get dark and I was wearing a dark shirt and I could tell people couldn't see me. Oops.
Thanks for the message. I hope I can have my appointments tomorrow. One is my regular appt. the other is to see about joining a group (so nervous about it though).

I'm scared to bring up the crisis plan. I think nobody thinks I need it. I don't want to explain myself and I don't want to talk. After reading what I just wrote it doesn't look like it's going to happen. I'm too afraid. Sometimes I write things down for my T because she knows I can't say certain things. I could do that. I still feel like I am trying to get attention or being dramatic if I talk about it. I'm not doing either I hope.

Upset ..... my appointment has been cancelled for today.

Writing it down would be good.

I'm sorry about your appt. When is your next one?

Did someone tell you when you were younger to stop being so dramatic when you would speak out? If so, this was just a ploy to get you to be quiet. You deserved to be heard, respected, and have your needs met!