[Twisted_Soul]

I knew it wasn't going to be a scenic view where you would want to take picutres etc...
But I never imagined the dreadful, horrible pain.
I think I am going to quit!
Little Girl wants it to stop.
There seems to be the feeling of a knife pierced through my heart.

[lenjan]

The only way to get rid of it is to slog your way through it -- been there, done that, lived to talk about it. Seriously.

{{{{{{{{{{{TS}}}}}}}}}}

Hate to have to break the news to you twisted soul - once the door starts opening theres no way to go back. I tried every way possible to close that door. Even stayed out of therapy for I think 7 years. The end result was I lost it. and with it in part caused some of my own childs problems. I know that Im not to blame for his having a chemical imbalance of the brain mental disorder but I sure didn't help it any by having him see me go over the edge from depression to active suicide mode.

Its a hard road but I promise you taking care of it now is better then having it come back to take a huge chunk of you life and possibly your future children along with it. If I had it to do over again I would have listened 20 years ago when a counselor told me that she thought I had DID and then listened a couple years after that when I was tested and confirmed DID. And I sure wish now I had taken care of all this back then for at least then my child would be here at home where he belongs instead of the foster care system between treatment facilities.

There is no way around it, under it or over it. Unfortunately we survivors have no choice but go straight though it.

Hang in there

[wisewoman]

ahh, so right, the only way out is through. And for me I had to go back to many places several times until I could be there without wanting to jump off a cliff or something. Hang in, get all of the support you can and know that we know it just ain't no fun at all.

[LILITH]

{{{{{{TS}}}}}} It is a hard road.... I am living it.....

[hillbunnyb]

Dear Twisted, Yeh, it gets ugly hard sometimes, but, the intensity passes, things get better. Hang in there slogging through, one step at a time. That loud splash you hear occasionally is me falling flat on my face in it. . . We all know what you're talking about. Give yourself a treat on me.