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Old Feb 23, 2013, 10:40 PM
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The bus was late.

I barely made it to my meeting today.

The chairs were re-arranged.

It was predominantly men. And at a men's recovery center.

They were all sprawling around me and crowding me.

ICK!

I had to get out of there.

I wish there were women's meetings every day.

I have a schedule of them, but they are at odd times of the day.

I hate it when I need to run again because I am so scared of being retraumatized again.

As I have said before, I am okay when I am not feeling attacked or about to be.

I hate being surrounded by men.

So scary...

and then it's rage.

Did not do anything, but just felt rage inside.

Seeing red.

So triggered... .
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Old Feb 23, 2013, 10:44 PM
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I am sorry you got triggered when you were trying to do something positive for yourself.
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Old Feb 24, 2013, 03:35 PM
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I appreciate optimize and anyone who takes the time and bothers to reply to my loco threads.

thanks, optimize for not being silent.

Carol
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Old Feb 24, 2013, 04:38 PM
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Yes, sometimes I don't know what to write in response. I don't want to do the wrong thing and a create a negative experience. Thanks for your feedback.
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Old Feb 24, 2013, 05:01 PM
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Yes, sometimes I don't know what to write in response. I don't want to do the wrong thing and a create a negative experience. Thanks for your feedback.
thanks again.

I have found that this can really keep each other from being supportive. What a shame we all feel we have to worry about that.

Sometimes the best way to support is to "actively listen" by saying, "I am here. I am sorry you are having a hard time."

Many of us think we have to have answers or profound advice.

This is a peer support group. We identify and share. That is all we need to do.

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Old Feb 25, 2013, 11:26 AM
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Old Mar 01, 2013, 11:57 PM
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I am going to women only groups now.
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Old Mar 02, 2013, 01:04 AM
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Hope that you are feeling better now.
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Old Mar 02, 2013, 08:47 PM
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It does feel awkward being around only women---I have learned a pattern of being a certain way from my abusers. But it is something I need to do.

I am not sure I am feeling better. lol

Feelings are coming up; painful ones of not being nurtured and not knowing how to ask for it---ie from women. UGH.

But I know I am going thru a process now; I am going in the right direction and I trust it.

Carol
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