[kala83]

For a very, very long time I have lied to myself about my relationship with my mother and my father.

I love them both deeply but the fact still remains my relationships with both of them were abusive.

My father was physically rought with me all the time when I was younger, my parents being divorced I went and saw him every other weekend.

a lot of the times when I was young I would cling to my mom not wanting to go. I loved my father but being around him was difficult I constaly felt like I had to walk on egg shells around him.
Watching every move and step that I took.

nothing he ever did to was very savere but I remember the feeling of frearful dread. Don't make dad mad....his words and the way he handled me when I was younger was horribly worse. And I hated being around him when he was like that cause his actions physical or emtional did hurt.

my mother without really aiming to and without realzing is can be very emtionally abusive with me and it does end up tearing me up inside.

we have both admited that this is going on,and we are trying to move past it. There is still a lot I need to do to come to terms of my past and all the issues I have had in dealing with it in how its affecting my life now

[Sannah]

Good work! Stepping beyond denial is a big accomplishment. Keep us updated on how you are doing?