[NuckingFutz]

I just had my mother's birthday on the 5th of May and Mother's Day on...well, mothers day. I was so traumatized by mom's birthday "weekend", that I didn't go to the first day of classes, and lied to my family about being sick so that I could not attend, I had to resign up for the next semister as I missed that first day. Since mom's birthday, I have been really depressed, have nighmares and just wanting to run away back to Austin from here in Las Vegas.

I even woke up one morning with the words "I hate myself" on my lips... I've had a lot of therapy and know that I really don't hate myself.

I am a survivor/victim of emotional abuse. Nothing has changed in my family except it is bigger. Family members still say nasty things behind eachother's back. It just feels evil to me and emotionally drains me to the point that it affects my life for a few weeks each time I see them.

I have great fears that they will kidnap me, leave me stranded with them or gang up and bully me (that did happen).

My plan is to move back to Austin from Las Vegas after school (I have 13 months left of school). I made commitment to this new career and have to give it a shot.

When I see my family, I feel bad vibes, burning in my stomach, my hands shake and I start hating myself as though I have absorbed their negative energy.

They also play mind games still. If I bring up something from childhood and share it, I'm told that I'm crazy and what I said never happened (even though it did and I have physical proof).

I have seen potential friends of their's take off at some point because they realized that my family was negative, relatives have done this as well. My mom's own brother doesn't talk to her much because he thinks she is a controling *****. She does show strong traits of be narcissistic.

Anyway, wanted to know if anyone here has set boundaries for themselves so that they can tolerate family members without getting sucked into their negativity?

Looking to hear from anyone who can relate.

[nicoleflynn]

#1...Knowing who is a safe person to share with is important. Don't talk about anything sensitive with people who are not safe. The verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life and I believe a book everyone on the planet should read. Another good book is Boundaries by Townsend and Cloud....that book will help you set healthy boundaries.

[Lauru]

I just ran away and wouldn't tell them where I lived. So I'm not much help I guess.