[growlithing]

I am haunted by my memories. I'll get into these periods of a few days to a few weeks where remembering what happened to me completely consumes my mind and the words my abusers said to me plays through my mind like a broken record. Does this ever actually go away? I've been in therapy for a few years and this hasn't gotten any better yet. Maybe I'm just impatient but I don't want to live with these memories for the rest of my life. I wish my mind worked like a computer so I could delete these memories and then wipe the recycle bin off of my hard drive. I don't know how much longer I can do this.

[Eevvee]

I think that most people can agree that a bits and pieces will stick with them and be triggered at certain points in their life... That's how it has been with me. I know that the therapy can help and I would never speak negatively of counsoling but sometimes talking about it too often as well, I feel, can make it hard for someone to let what happened go. If you speak about it to a therapist all of the time then you are letting it consume you and take over your life. (If you feel that you need to, by all means, continue though!!)

Always remember that it does not define you. You are not "A victim" You are YOU. You have been hurt. Even though it feels like you are weak and hurting, you are SO strong for being able to fight passed it and keep going. That is very admirable. Keep your head held high. Those little bits and pieces might come back to haunt you but remember that fighting passed it shows your strength and courage <3 <3 <3 *hugs*

[butterflymum29]

im not sure if it get better im at a place where i block things out but they do come back and haunt me at times different triggers at different times but the feelings get different also but i have alot of anger outbursts i can relate to u wanting things to stop as i feel i want things to stop im just starting to get help but i have suffered alot of loses and abuse and my kids were abused and that plays on my mind not sure if anything i said helps you i guess im looking for someone to talk to also