[wisewoman]

So here I am trying to get beyond. Never could do anything right, I would get a smack, kick, beating or worse. Still can't seem to ever do anything right. Are there just people out there like sharks who smell blood? Who knows, I will continue to live till the blood is gone.

[Rhapsody]

YES................ until we are all dried up inside -

[wisewoman]

But my body keeps making new life, new blood. Check out the thread by rapunzel in psychotherapy. I am working hard.

[Rapunzel]

You are a survivor. That means you work hard.

[wisewoman]

It's hard work to get through the day sometimes without the old fight or flight trigger, I am in danger. I was taught to play dead to be more safe. I think sometimes that's not such a bad plan. Eventhough it is not life and death, the trigger connects to that place so that is where the cognitive stuff comes in.

[Perna]

You are the right size, it's the pants that don't fit. The people commenting on you and your behavior, slapping, beating, etc. you are the ones with the problem. Only you can be you and you are 100% the best there is at being you. You can't make mistakes being you because there's no one else who can do it better. Not all people are sharks and the sharks aren't going to win. Too many Roy Scheider police chiefs and Richard Dreyfuss ichthyologists to help us.

[wisewoman]

Thanks Perna.

[JustAPixie]

((((((((((((((( ww )))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((( rhapsody ))))))))))))))))

I wish I could give you some hope! You both deserve so much more out of life!

[wisewoman]

Oh Tanya, thanks, it's just the darned fight or flight stuff and "being Bad" means I am in trouble and will be hurt. Scat to that. I am large and in charge now!

[JustAPixie]

Way to go ww!!!!!!!!!!!

[wisewoman]

Thanks Tanya.

[hillbunnyb]

large and in charge, i like that!!!