20 Signs of unresolved Trauma

I have pretty much all of these things.

I have/had all of these. Some I still struggle with and some Ive overcome. The worst one for me to overcome is the dissociation.

hmm everything except 9 and 19

I have almost all of them.

I don't like thinking about my childhood. Largely because a lot of it is just blackness. I do know there was some abuse from the male figure in my life. I, also, know I witnessed abuse to my mother. But I can never remember the extent.

I was in an abusive relationship in middle school, too. I never got the help I needed. It's pretty hard to at that age. I do kind of remember them showing us a video in eighth grade about teenage relationships turning abusive. It kind of... clicked then. I don't think about that much, either.

Actually. I'm sure it's VERY unhealthy how often I try to ignore that either ever happened. Maybe one day I'll be able to remember it clearly and speak about it. For now, though, all I can say is this list is essentially me to a T barring a few numbers.

Is it bad that I have all but 3?

No, no it is not bad.

It is sad that so many of us have so many of these traits though. But it isn't bad, and there isn't anything wrong with any of us.

The trouble Red_Panda is that I only remember the bad stuff in my life, and that is so clear, I can remember smells, and colors, and feelings. The good stuff, I struggle to maintain memories of.

But, thankfully, my t specializes in PTSD, and we are working on it.

I get you. I have a hard time thinking of good examples of my family life, even though I know that they existed. I'm really glad that you have a T who is helping you with all of this!

Jeff, you are not alone. I just wanted to let you know. I have the same issue as you. I can remember the bad like it was yesterday. The smells, the weather, the colors of the walls, but I can't tell you if I even ate lunch yesterday. If I did I have n idea w was. Jsut know you are not alone. I am glad you have a trustworthy T. I don't know where I would be w/ out mine, well yes I do really, I would be hopelessly lost.

Thank God for T's, see that is a positive.

Wish I had known this a long time ago. Hopefully I can resolve more trauma, though sometimes I feel like the window's closed on some things.

1. Addictive behaviors – excessively turning to drugs, alcohol, sex, shopping, gambling as a way to push difficult emotions and upsetting trauma content further away.

2. An inability to tolerate conflicts with others – having a fear of conflict, running from conflict, avoiding conflict, maintaining skewed perceptions of conflict

9. Eating disorders – anorexia, bulimia, obesity, etc

10. Excessive sense of self-blame – taking on inappropriate responsibility as if everything is their fault, making excessive apologies

17. Self-harm, self-mutilation, self-injury, self-destruction

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15. Repeatedly acting from a victim role in current day relationships

18. Suicidal actions and behaviors, failed attempts to suicide