[sandysue44]

I am in a relationship with a man whom I have been with about two years. He is an alcoholic but is not drinking-at least not around me. I believe he is schizophrenic. His mother says he takes after his uncle and blacks out and becomes a monster when he drinks. Even when not drinking he becomes a different person when he is around certain people. I see him change. He is like a shape shifter. In the past he has physically assalted me and destroyed property when in a black out. He has gone to jail for this and for a dui. He has alot of legal battles and fines ahead of him. I have Bipolar II Disorder. I never know when he will be the bad Chris or the good Chris. I can't help but react when he is the bad Chris. I start shaking and am in terror and rage. I let him know I see the evil spirits in him and it is not his fault and he vehemently denies it. I know what is going on. He closes his eyes and I can't see his beautiful blue eyes. Sometimes he purses his lips and makes faces. I HATE IT! I can't deal with it. When he is like this we bitterly argue. He verbally abuses me and says he is leaving me. It escalates. In the morning he transforms into the good Chris like magic. This is not the man I thought I would be with as a child. I want a normal healthy man. I almost got evicted because of our fights.

[sandysue44]

Is the time of the Survivors of Abuse chat room 7:00 p.m. E.S.T.? I have been waiting all day to get on chat and I can't figure out how to. I live in Virginia Beach, VA