[granite1]

I need to know is it worth it at all.does talking about the abuse really make things better .it just does not seem to at all .all it is doing is changing my reality into a horror show

[mazing]

It does help. It is extremely hard at the time but it stops you doing it alone. In time it stops the abuse from consuming your life. Getting it out helps you to move forward.

I'm sorry you are struggling so much at the moment Take it slow when you need to and try to do activities that can help you to relax and have some fun when you can - trying to find things that show you that positive things in the world still exist.

Right there with you, Granite. I don't have any helpful words but you and I are hanging onto the same piece of driftwood, it seems. Hold my hand if you need to, and let's just keep believing it will get better until we realize that it already has!

[the abyss]

i did hypnotherapy that helped me ,you do not have to go into detail , but everyone is different. sorry you are feeling low.
take care

[healingme4me]

Is that the main, focus of your therapy, with your T? Addressing, the past, can be painful. Have you asked, your T, to step back, for a while, work, on here and now, and then revisit?

Are you currently, taking any meds, to help, while you tackle, this part of your life? Sometimes, that can help, to get through it.

[sweepy62]

Granite I'm in the middle of deciding that. I have been hurting and feeling hurt , angry and confused and I have only have scratched the surface . I have been drawing how I feel to see if it helps. .I plan on going to my next session and telling t I'm doubtful if its worth it. As for you , you are a strong person please don't give up , this is how I feel ATM , so I know how you feel. But we have survived the worst

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[unaluna]

The way you described it in the other post reminded me of when you used to talk about pink and red. You have the adult who talks about it in session with no feeling, and then the feelings practically take over the child part as you're driving. Like you're two different people. Somebody in the other thread said about the emotional part remembering but without words. What talking is supposed to do, is to link those two parts of your brain together, so the emotional part doesn't keep coming back just as a feeling, like a haunting, like a nightmare. Like rainbow said in her thread this week, she felt that sinking in her stomach when she thought about her t. I used to have that same feeling, along with some others. Otherwise, if you stop t, it's like you're just going to hoard those feelings. I ddon't know if they will get much worse, but I don't think they will go away or get any better without working to integrate or link them. Your adult self really can handle stuff better than your child self could. Your adult self can get mad. Your adult self can protect yourself.

Hope you're doing okay today, Granite.

[Fuzzybear]

It did not help me. It only made things much worse for me, but I didn't have a good therapy ending so I think it could be different for you.

[ThisWayOut]

it helped when I was able to talk about it... it brings up a lot of pain and makes it very real again, but so far it has also brought relief in the long run. everyone's different though. if this is truly hurting more than helping, can you approach it a different way? my T has a variety of techniques she offered that did not involve talking about things or disclosing much. I have been the one insisting that I need to talk about it, so I know there are other methods to addressing stuff. As someone mentioned, maybe focusing on the present more so than the past would be helpful?