[cryingontheinside]

As a little kid i was neglected ignored forgotton and left with varios people who left me home alone, sent me to sleep at strangers house and taught me to shop lift. I witnesses my dad beating my mum my brother used to punch me in thr face everyday
As a teenager i was bullied by my family on a daily basis , beaten often by my brother and beaten by my mum on three occasions as well as being beaten on a regular basis by a boy in maths class, while the teacher forced me to sit next to him despite what was happening.
As an adult ive been in two long relationdships where the men mentally tortured and contolled me and stole money along with the occasional beating.
As well as that i waw sexually abused as a child by my friends dad and was raped 8 years ago.
I struggle with day to day life, anxiety panic attacks phobias etc. Ive tried for years to get councelling and im only just on a waiting list gor psycopherapy as dont work presently. Everyone tells me im still young and need to get on with my life but i think i cant afford to have any thing else happen. So its better for me to have no life

[glok]

Hello, cryingontheinside. You have had to endure a lot. I hope you can get the professional help you need.

I wish you well.

[Frankbtl]

Hi cryingontheinside, I'm sorry you've had to go through so much. I'd go with, please don't let this bring your life to a standstill. I know that what's happened must really hurt and make you want to "close of"/protect yourself from things out there, but the people who have done those things to you have no right whatsoever to take away the life you deserve.
And in that I'm so NOT saying "im still young and need to get on with my life" that just hints of "just get over it, and move on", which after what you've been through just sounds so naive. Of course it's not just as simple as............So it's good that you've tried hard to get help and are reaching out for help. Just that sitting on a waiting list isn't really helping you right now is it?
So maybe an abuse helpline?? Maybe keep on talking to us about what you've been through?? There are a lot of very understanding/supportive people around.
Because there will be people capable of respecting you, caring for you, loving you just as you truly deserve out there. And you have as much right in reaching out for that, feeling/experiencing/cherishing that and feeling safe as anyone else. The people who have treated you so badly/your experiences in the past do not have to define you.
So maybe about taking the tentative steps towards that, with support/help?? I know it really might not be easy and you'll have some of what's happened to you along the way to work through. But hey, you've got us here for you at least in that journey.
And please don't let what's happened bring your life to a "standstill", you're worth more than that.

Alison

[nicoleflynn]

How horrific. I have heard good things about RAINN (rape support).

xo

[IrisBloom]

You DO have a life! You are alive! Don't let those horrible things define you. You deserve as much happiness as everyone else. Get the help you need when you can and learn. Show those abusers that they didn't break you! I know you can do it!