[ThisWayOut]

I had some respite from the flashbacks for a little bit, but now that I'm in bed with a cold they are back with a vengeance. The nightmares get really weird with the cold medicine, and I can't find a way to ground from the body memories. I don't have enough energy to do anything, but I can't sleep either without the cold meds... I feel totally trapped in this. There's always been a connection between being sick and the abuse, but usually I can distance myself from it through sleep. Now everything is coming back more twisted because of the effects of the meds. I can't remember the dreams enough to talk my way out of them, but the body sensations linger long after the dream ends...
I was supposed to have therapy today, but I had to cancel. Is there a way to ground from all this? I don't think I can deal well with flashbacks when I'm not feeling well on top of it all.

I'm afraid I don't have anything to suggest here, ThisWayOut. I've also been ill for a couple of weeks now & haven't been sleeping. So last night I took one of these nighttime cold medicines. If I had any dreams I don't remember them. But it's now mid-afternoon, as I write this. And I'm still groggy. I don't know which is worse, not sleeping, or being groggy from the medication all day. Either way I end up not being of any use to anyone (including myself).

The only thing I can think of to suggest, with regard to your situation, is possibly trying some progressive relaxation. There are videos on YouTube that lead one through different types of relaxation techniques, so you don't have to do it all in your head. I know, for me, trying to do this in my head would be more work than I'm up to at present.

Hope you start feeling better soon...

[ThisWayOut]

Thanks Skeezyks,
I tried the progressive relaxation. It worked one time, but then not the others. I think I may call my T and ask for suggestions... It's really disturbing. :/