i bet he's not sitting anxious and afraid
bet he's not worried bout the mess he made
when he took innocence from little girls
still with soft blonde baby curls
bet he's all happy, thinking he's god
living a life well clothed, well shod -
changing his name and getting away
leaving me wondering where he is each day.
now in hiding after all these years
police are looking, i hope he fears.
not so brave now he's wanted by the law
hope he's scared like i was before.
when i was 8 and he came to my room
remember that feeling of total doom.
remember the suit he used to wear
remember cringing when he stroked my hair.
remember crying in the back of his van
remember dirty hands of a fully grown man.
bet he's not guilty of what's in his past
or all these feelings i have that last
the lies he told the threats he used
to blackmail, betray, scare and abuse.
to rot in hell is far too good
i'd like to be where he once stood
and hurt him bad like he did to me
the pain in his eyes i would LOVE to see.
grovel and beg and plead all you can
i'll reduce you to a sad, pathetic little man.
i'll beat you down for all those years
you put me through mistrust, torture and tears.
i hate you HATE YOU i want you in prison
a dungeon if it were my decision
the stench of rats and evil and fear
would fill your nose and ring in your ears
i hope someday justice will be done
and you'll go down like the setting sun
to the depths of hell engulfed in fire
and burn for eternity that's my desire.

gosh that's better lol. feel quite good now......

jin xoxoxoxox

[kimmydawn]

What a powerful ending!!! You've turned this around in this for a justifiable outcome.

I hope that's seen for you, jinnyann.

I'm sorry you were hurt...very. As a survivor, I know the pain as well as the longing shown here.

KD

thankyou kimmydawn

just had to get that out. never done that about abuser b4. felt good saying it all

jinny xxxxx

[ally88]

wow, well said!! I agree...that was very powerful and meaningful. I have never been through it myself but I praise all that have had to go through abuse, and do also wish for the abuser's punishment. (punishment is a major understatement) but, im sorry to all who have experienced this. and with that being said, glad you feel better having gotten that out jinny! here anytime to listen. (((jinny)))

[desperado]

((((((((((((Jin)))))))))))))))

Let it out..........

thanks guys....

on a run now, prolly do more later lol. i just wish they'd bring back hanging

jin xx

[sabby]

(((((( jinny ))))))

Very moving poetry my sweet. You write so well and I'm glad you were able to get it out! I'm proud of you for working towards your healing. You deserve freedom from the pain and all that goes with it!

xoxoxox
J

thankyou sab, glad you're here love you jin xxxx

i have some ideas about hanging......... love you, pat

[Talulah]

wow.me.too.almost.exactly.wow.my.heart.is.aching.

[InACorner]

(((((((((((Jinny)))))))))) it is a very moving poem

love ya

[Pandama]

I would so love to send that poem to the man that stole my daughter's innocence. For so many reasons I can't - yet. What he did has not destroyed my daughter and it WILL NOT and I applaud you for YOUR courage and strength and determination for it not to destroy YOU.

[southernyankee]

You go girl!!!!
powerfull, empowering


My soul hears and wishes for the same enpowerment...
My abuser was mostly my Mom, yes sexually too. She is 78 years old now and has what they are calling Alzhiemer's. i think it just all catching up to her and she just wants to forget. What ya going to do? - -- beat up an old lady?

Hang in there, love

[agony007]

((((jinny)))),

(agony stands and claps for jinny) that hit home for me. i too wonder if he has suffered what he made me suffer. i wonder if he will ever suffer as much as i have. or for that matter as much as any of us victims of abuse have suffered. i carry a life long stain that cannot be removed. there are times where i cannot be intimate with my own husband. and times i shy away from my children because i don't like to feel anyone to close to me at times. in essence he took my innocense and is still affecting my life in ways that i cannot control. so i sympathize with you jinny. and i am so happy that u were bold enough to make that poem that reflected how you feel. you are not alone anymore, you have us.

warmest wishes,
agony

love you agony. i'm here for you too. you are one of my rocks in hre and i care so deeply for you.

pm me if you need to talk

love you, kerry xoxoxox

(((((((((((((((jinny))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((bronee))))))))))))))

sorry bout that, just me and tymber i suppose. i left. told him i'd keep out his way

jinny you still have the rest of us!!!
luv ya