[kutt38]

i have a lot of questions troubling me for a long time..how badly can sexual abuse affect ones personality?can abuse cause sexual addictions?why memories of abuse that once i cried over, became memories of pleasure? (wishing they did more & wishing those to happen again) how normal is it when you enjoy being touched inappropriately?does abuse create abusers? Is there anyone out there fantasising being touched? Seems like there is an inversion in personality. Why is this happening? Am confused..if i wanted all those to happen or not? Help pls if u know any of these answers..thanks

[kaliope]

Originally Posted by kutt38

i have a lot of questions troubling me for a long time..how badly can sexual abuse affect ones personality?can abuse cause sexual addictions?why memories of abuse that once i cried over, became memories of pleasure? (wishing they did more & wishing those to happen again) how normal is it when you enjoy being touched inappropriately?does abuse create abusers? Is there anyone out there fantasising being touched? Seems like there is an inversion in personality. Why is this happening? Am confused..if i wanted all those to happen or not? Help pls if u know any of these answers..thanks

well i can answer a few.......SA can actually cause split personality, or dissociative identity disorder, where the mind cannot handle what is happening to it so it splits off into other identities that can handle the abuse. i think abuse can lead to sexual addictions. some people develop and aversion to sex while others act out inappropriately due to abuse. whether abuse causes abusers is up for debate but most abusers have been abused.

[kutt38]

SA is the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone..nothing can take away the memories & the pain..its too difficult to deal with when, what our body want & mind doesnt want is the same..i just dont understand myself.

[Mrs. Mania]

Originally Posted by kutt38

i have a lot of questions troubling me for a long time..how badly can sexual abuse affect ones personality?can abuse cause sexual addictions?why memories of abuse that once i cried over, became memories of pleasure? (wishing they did more & wishing those to happen again) how normal is it when you enjoy being touched inappropriately?does abuse create abusers? Is there anyone out there fantasising being touched? Seems like there is an inversion in personality. Why is this happening? Am confused..if i wanted all those to happen or not? Help pls if u know any of these answers..thanks

I have spent a lot of time dealing with the shame of enjoying my SA. The person who molested me treated me horribly the first 6 years of my life. Mental and physical abuse was a daily activity. The only time he was ever nice to me was during sexual abuse. When it stopped, his other abuse intensified and I spent the next 3 years in misery. I drank heavily and was very promiscuous, I was even homeless for awhile. I think it absolutely changed my personality.

[kutt38]

i only want to hate it when it happens..

[nicoleflynn]

We have no control how our bodies respond.

[kutt38]

i used to hate it..hated it for years and my body too didnt react to all those.only lately i started fantasising things like that & have started to enjoy it.life is a total mess now