[broken_girl123]

I have so many nightmares of people physically hurting me that it has just become so normal. I don't understand why i have these nightmares because I don't think i have ever been physically abused in real life. I've had them so much that now all i think about during the day is people hurting me. It's not that I'm scared of people hurting me, but more like I want people to hurt me. It's like i have daydreams and fantasies of people hurting me and I really don't understand why. It seems so awful and crazy. I feel like I'm going crazy. Am i the only one that has had these kinds of thoughts? Any thoughts on why this could be happening to me, and for so long now?

[kaliope]

maybe you feel like you are being hurt by people so it is coming out physically in your thoughts and dreams.

[broken_girl123]

Originally Posted by kaliope

maybe you feel like you are being hurt by people so it is coming out physically in your thoughts and dreams.

That makes sense. I just don't get why i would want to have these thoughts. Maybe to cope with disappointment? I mean i wouldn't be disappointed if it didn't happen so maybe that's just my way of not getting disappointed? I really don't know.