[PrairieCat]

This C-PTSD thing is getting to me. At 5 AM still in bed, I started thinking of something about my childhood that scared me and after almost 40 years, I went right into a Primal again! My body convulsed, went into the fetal position and I screamed my head off for several minutes - under the blankets. It felt great. Scared the cats. Then I stopped and I was very worn out but I felt I needed to fight or hit someone, so I pounded my mattress for a bit. I can tell that this is not over, I'll need to get into this same thing again. I dread it but I will do it. It is amazing to me that this occurred.

I think this is either about something that I was very scared of or something that actually happened. It was when I had to work at my parents business alone and way too young, had to wait on people. Or it is maybe about something that happened which I have forgotten about since it happened. I do not know which it is. I hope I can figure it out. I first learned primal therapy in the 1970's in CA. In the back of my brain I have been wondering for a while if maybe primal therapy might help me now. But I did NOT plan this at all and it totally shocked me. The screaming shocked me.

Primal therapy was founded by psychologist Arthur Janov in the San Francisco area in the 1970's. He wrote a book called "The Primal Scream" and many more books which I read while in therapy. Janov said that only his therapists could do primal therapy. Well, others did it also, at least forms of it, including my therapist in Newport Beach, CA.

Primal therapy was exhausting when I was in my 30's. It is moreso now. Anybody else out there ever do Primal Therapy? I'd like to hear from you even if you didn't, would like to know your thoughts on this. All I can say is that it is a Real thing and it is a good thing, believe it or not. There were jokes in 'the old days' about the 'primal scream.' This is no joke and I'm not laughing. Just smiling a bit.

[healingme4me]

Sounds cathartic

[PrairieCat]

Originally Posted by healingme4me

Sounds cathartic

Thanks. I hope that it will eventually be very cathartic. It tipped me off that there is more there to investigate and experience. I sure don't want to do it again because it is unpleasant although I felt good after everything was all over. I know I will have to do it again, though. It ain't over till it's over.

[Purple Heart]

Hi

I guess I've been doing primal scream now for four years. I've been screaming out the traumas from childhood. After screaming it is very cathartic as the child within feels free and loved. I do believe that when I scream I tap into the very deep pain that resulted from being severely abused.

PH