[paradox22]

I had an eating disorder where I felt like I didn't deserve to eat and I used not eating to control my emotions. I was diagnosed with an eating disorder a few months ago. However, I've been eating better but only for a few weeks. I have been doing somewhat better overall but I still have emotional pain and am not too functional. So basically I just got an interview to work in an eating disorder treatment center. I do have an interest in psychology and helping others but I think I'm the one who needs the help. I have unresolved problems with being abused. I applied to go to a treatment center myself but I wasn't accepted because they thought biploar was my primary diagnosis and I was too manic at the time. So I really don't know what to do. For me there is a med that makes me eat but it makes me eat too much so I don't take it. So that makes me think I wouldn't get into a treatment center. Should I accept the job or try again to be put in a treatment center? The job is interesting to me because I've been through what they are going through but I don't know if I might be triggered by the girls and stuff like that. I still have troubles eating but it's not to the point where I couldn't eat if I had to. I usually skip breakfast and lunch though. There's another problem. My parents are pushing me to work and say me going to a treatment center is not what I should do they want me to do outpatient. And if I don't get this job there's a big chance I won't get another job at all since jobs are scarce where I live. Please help!

[Miktis25]

Personally if I were you I would try apply again to get into the treatment centre. As for your parents - do what's right for YOU. You were the one who was abuse and are suffering for it, so it's entirely right for you to do what you need to do to help yourself heal. People can say anything they like, but at the end of the day none of it means a thing if they can go on with their lives and you are left alone to struggle while trying to fulfill everyone else's wishes. I wish you all the best, you deserve every chance to have a wonderful life

[paradox22]

Originally Posted by Miktis25

Personally if I were you I would try apply again to get into the treatment centre. As for your parents - do what's right for YOU. You were the one who was abuse and are suffering for it, so it's entirely right for you to do what you need to do to help yourself heal. People can say anything they like, but at the end of the day none of it means a thing if they can go on with their lives and you are left alone to struggle while trying to fulfill everyone else's wishes. I wish you all the best, you deserve every chance to have a wonderful life

I agree with you because my life is really bad. But then I think what a good opportunity this job is and how wonderful it would look on my resume. Most people psych majors don't have opportunities like this. :/

[Miktis25]

Originally Posted by paradox22

I agree with you because my life is really bad. But then I think what a good opportunity this job is and how wonderful it would look on my resume. Most people psych majors don't have opportunities like this. :/

I see what you mean, but I wonder if - as you mentioned earlier - it might be triggering for you? Listening to other's abuse stories and their struggles before starting to deal with my own properly near pushed me over the edge, and whilst it wouldn't necessarily be the same for you (could even help you work through yours) I would think about maybe if it would be the right time for it. I'm saying that, not everyone even finds treatment helpful. I wanted to be put into the mental health hospital ward when I was struggling to keep myself safe from myself, I had so many proffessionals working my case to see what was going on and figure out how to help me... And then found a family friend (who had been trained as a psychotherapist) and though methods are a little... Different.. With her I've done so well. It could look good on your résumé, but would you personally rather that than treatment? And with going through treatment, would it definitely not be there afterwards? You could get some advice from the staff with positions to try for and in treatment you could notice ways that others use in their job - as if you were shadowing. Or, from another angle, would another kind of treatment maybe be more suited to you? Here "Nexus" offers see ices specifically for victims of different types of abuse (I think I'm starting to ramble a little lol, but just different things that may be helpful to think about )

[paradox22]

Originally Posted by Miktis25

I see what you mean, but I wonder if - as you mentioned earlier - it might be triggering for you? Listening to other's abuse stories and their struggles before starting to deal with my own properly near pushed me over the edge, and whilst it wouldn't necessarily be the same for you (could even help you work through yours) I would think about maybe if it would be the right time for it. I'm saying that, not everyone even finds treatment helpful. I wanted to be put into the mental health hospital ward when I was struggling to keep myself safe from myself, I had so many proffessionals working my case to see what was going on and figure out how to help me... And then found a family friend (who had been trained as a psychotherapist) and though methods are a little... Different.. With her I've done so well. It could look good on your résumé, but would you personally rather that than treatment? And with going through treatment, would it definitely not be there afterwards? You could get some advice from the staff with positions to try for and in treatment you could notice ways that others use in their job - as if you were shadowing. Or, from another angle, would another kind of treatment maybe be more suited to you? Here "Nexus" offers see ices specifically for victims of different types of abuse (I think I'm starting to ramble a little lol, but just different things that may be helpful to think about )

Yeah I see what you're saying. Also therapy never helped me too much so maybe treatment wouldn't help me as much? But if it would help should I ask to start in 2 months and get treatment for myself first?

[Miktis25]

Originally Posted by paradox22

Yeah I see what you're saying. Also therapy never helped me too much so maybe treatment wouldn't help me as much? But if it would help should I ask to start in 2 months and get treatment for myself first?

Very few therapies worked for me - I'm autistic and they would either completely ignore that or not think of anything other than that. The main problem with treatment for me was that I wouldn't have coped with the environment and changes, but also it wouldn't have dealt with the real problem, just the 'symptoms' of it. Some find it very helpful though, and prefer it to anything else.

Maybe that could work for you - so it would still be there just delayed for you to be in a better place for going ahead with it