Here's a Story trigger warning

This is a story about someone I know. Her life. She needs help knowing what to do.......
while learning how to crawl and playing in the kitchen under the table, her daddy broke a cabinet door over her mommy's head. she just sat there and apparently watched. then, when she was three, her mommy and daddy took her to a babysitter that they knew nothing about. she normally only babysat boys, but gave them a discount to watch the daughter as well as their son. the babysitter started using the daughter to clean and eventually started punishing her by locking her in a closet. after two days there, she was taken to the bathroom when she first got there stripped of here clothes and then put in an ice cold bath and pulled out and not given her clothes back or towel. so she was made to clean the house like normal that day without any clothes on. the boys that were there molested here. after a few days of that, she was taken back first thing in the morning, stripped, locked in the bathroom, the babysitter came back, dipped her in water with ice in it then laid her on the babysitters bed and tied her down. the babysitter was the first person ever to rape her, but that day she wouldn't be the last. the babysitter used a strap on. after the babysitter was done, she was dipped in the iced water again. this time when she came out of the bathroom, all of the boys were in the bedroom and she was going to be molested then raped by all of them. her babysitter was using her as a sex teaching doll for boys that were only a few years older than here and her own brother was watching all of this happen and he was less than one. and when one of the boys got into trouble, the boy in question and her were locked int he closet and the boy was allowed to do whatever he wanted and if he came out injured, she would be sorry. that continued to happen on a daily basis until her brother started crying everytime they were left there even though she had told her parents that she didn't like it there at all. there were multiple kids that went through that babysitter and they all got to rape her at least once.
then between ages 5 and 10 she was molested and raped by her best friend at the time's step dad. he nearly killed her 2x's the first night he raped her.
the day that her friends stepdad first raped her, her dad had gotten really mad because she had failed a spelling test. he started yelling at her so she got up to walk away before he got to mad, but he didn't like that and grabbed her by the ponytail and pulled her backwards and she hit the bathroom door, door frame, and metal bed frame with her back and head. then her dad picked her up and started shaking her roughly. and yelling at her not to tell anyone.
then when she was in 4th grade, her dad beat her with a cane fishing pole. the reason was apparently because she had accidently poked her brother in the arm with a pencil.
then at 13 she was really molested by her brother. i say really molested because she doesn't consider the other stuff he did molestation. since then she's been raped by him several times. she's now 19 and he's 16.
she is thinking about pressing charges on the friends step dad because he's the one that the charges would probably stick with because he's been convicted 2 times.

well, i guess in case you don't know, this story is my story. there's probably more to it that i just can't tell you yet, but who knows other thann me right?

((((((tigersassy))))))

I am so sorry you went through that. My heart breaks for you and I cried while reading your story. You are not to blame and none of it is your fault. I am here and I am listening. I know it was hard to post this but you did it. You are brave to share and I feel your pain. Keep posting and reaching. Know you are not alone anymore. I send you good thoughts and prayers. And I hold you close and reach out my hand to you.

purplesecrets

I am so very, very sorry.....

I am crying for you......

Tigersassy, I am sorry you have gone through all of this. You are very courageous to share your story with us—thank you for trusting us. I know trust must be a difficult thing for you. My biggest concern right now is that you are in a safe place away from your brother and dad.

I can relate to your story. My abuse started at a young age and escalated as I got older. I am not sure what else to write because so many emotions are brewing around inside of me. Right now, I am mainly thinking about the physical pain you endured as a child. I really feel for you—it was horrible. I know the emotional turmoil must be tremendous—mine was…and sometimes still is.

If it helps you, please keep writing.

PM me if you ever want me to listen.

no, still living at home with dad, brother and whole motley crew all of which are abusive at varying points in time. my mom is mainly verbally and mentally abusive, and my youngest brother is the calmest one of all and has only hit me a few times. (there are 5 of us total living in the house).

I hope you can find a way to get out of the environment soon...for your own safety. I am sorry you are going through this--you must feel a little trapped.

If you are still under 18, you need help from your county legal system. Google a court Guardian Ad Litem. Even CPS can help. You need to pull together the strength to be your own advocate. Good luck! If you need help, PM me.

emmy

((((((((((((tigersassy)))))))))))....i do sorry that you have had to endure so much at the hands of so many. you are very brave to share that with is and i am very proud of you for finding the courage to do so. over eighteen/und eighteen, doesn't matter. you need to get out of there by any means possible. and i urge you to go to the police as scary as that seems to you. if you dont stop them they'll just find another victim to steal their lives away. just as they did yours. you can stop them from doing it again. i urge you please tell someone of authority, save another innocent from these monsters. and save yourself fromthem as well.

recluse1

Tigersassy,

That took much bravery and courage to post and I for one am honored that you allowed me to read your story. You have endured so much that no one ever deserves to endure and you are still bravely standing.

You really need to try to trust someone else. A teacher, a policeman, a neighbor. Someone who can get you the help you need. If you go to one of these people they should immediately remove you from this home and get you to a safe place.

You indicate you'd like to press charges on the friends father and that's fine. But, if you did go to the authorities, with you being a minor, they would also press charges against family or that babysitter as well.

Please keep in contact and let us know how you are doing. You deserve to be safe and I hope you find that safety soon.

Tranquility

i'm not a minor. i'll be turning 20 this year. and i can't leave because my family is helping pay for school. i need that help.

oh, sass. there are other ways to get help for school. you are far more important. so much so. you are so courageous in telling your story. i'm so proud of you. really. i seriously mean it. you are so worth it. it was not your fault. so sorry you had to go through all that. you are to be commended for your courage. i know you may not feel this way, but it is true. we are here for you.....

I agree with wickedwings - there are lots of pathways through college. You do not have to put up with abuse.

First - go to the financial aid office of your university and start filling out paper work. Find out what you are eligible for now and what criteria you may need to have to get financial aid later.

Explore if your university offers a co-op program where you can be placed within employment situations within your field of study. A great opportunity to earn some money plus get experience that counts towards your degree.

Many companies offer partial payment of college classes that lead to a degree. Perhaps you could take an entry level position within the business community with such a company and take night classes.

Don't settle for abuse just because you need money for school. The price is too high.

apparently the time that i thought was the first time for the age 5 to 10 molest and rape, it wasn't. the night that was my first i was nearly killed multiple times i think from the memory that i have it was closer to 5. and i was 6 at the time of the first rape by that guy.

Thank you for sharing your story tiger. I know how hard it must be for you to trust anyone. I am always here for you if you need to talk. I also can relate to your need to have their help for collage, but I worry about your safety.

can i not get a freaking break? last night while i was at work some customer walks up behind me while i'm picking a pin up so no one steps on it and when i go to take a step back he's pressed up against me his front to my back, and then he grabbed my bottom. which threw me into the tunnel of omg it's going to happen again.

Don't know what to say. It's not like I haven't heard it before, been through some it myself, but... my heart breaks for you, Tig!

Like other's have told you, there's other ways to pay for college. If you can manage it, get out of there!

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history is starting to repeat itself. last night my best friends step dad m*lested me i guess that's the way to put it. he put his hand under my coat that i had over the top of me trying to stay warm cause i was cold and he touched me on my chest, and once on my inner leg. while his daughter was in the car. but she didn't see anything. i can't tell anyone. cause he works for the prison systems and stuff... so i'm sol.