i just dont know anymore
i just think everyone wants to leave irl they dont want to be around someone who is sad and hurt im damaged goods they hate it they try and ignore it or they make jokes about it that crush me why dont they care i want someone to care i want them to understand i tell them that their jokes hurt me and not to do it that it triggers me and pushes me over the edge and yet they still do it they think its funny to see me lose it and get so angry and get so sad why why why why why im glad that they are leaving id rather be alone if no one irl is gonna give a damn then i dont want anyone
im at the edge of a cliff ready to jump off maybe i will hit the side a few times and drown in the water far below maybe i wont

[sabby]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( els ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Hon, I'm so sorry you are hurting like this. I wish I could just put my arms around you IRL and let you know that I care about you and would never do those mean things to you. Sweety, maybe it's time to change your friends. If they don't have an ounce of respect for your pain and what you are going through, then what good are they? They certainly aren't good friends for hurting you as they do.

I love ya sweety....and I'm reaching out for you so take my hand and breathe with me ok? Hold on tight...squeeze if you want to....there will be no going over the cliff.....only walking together in the nice warm sunshine!



*Gentle Hugs*
sabby

maybe its time not even to bother to have friends
maybe its time not even to bother to have anyone in my life
maybe its time not to have a life

Els((((((((((((((((((((((((((love)))))))))))))))))))))))))))sending you such a gentle hug and a kiss on your cheek. we all love you, i've missed you so much, i want to help you so much. i'm so sorry you feel so down. you are a wonderful gift to everyone, dont let people irl get to you. they only get to you if you allow them to. you are above that, you are above them. you really matter to us here, you are so compassionate and caring and a joy to speak to and have as a friend, things will get better, please believe me, you've seen where i've been, i'm back and healing and so will you. i love you sweet sweet els. you're so rad.

jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[pachyderm]

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
elsqueelio said:
i just dont know anymore
i just think everyone wants to leave irl they dont want to be around someone who is sad and hurt im damaged goods they hate it they try and ignore it or they make jokes about it that crush me why dont they care i want someone to care i want them to understand i tell them that their jokes hurt me and not to do it that it triggers me and pushes me over the edge and yet they still do it they think its funny to see me lose it and get so angry and get so sad why why why why why im glad that they are leaving id rather be alone if no one irl is gonna give a damn then i dont want anyone
im at the edge of a cliff ready to jump off maybe i will hit the side a few times and drown in the water far below maybe i wont

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">

I couldn't find an appropriate "smilie" that was sad... I understand and have experienced similar reactions. It is tough to deal with them. But not everyone reacts that way. Some care.

I hope.

[TryingToCope]

((((((((((els))))))))))
I'm sorry people are treating you like this. You don't deserve it.

I am sooo sorry that you are in such pain.. I wish I could soothe it for you... sending you caring, kind thoughts..

[InACorner]

((((((((((((((Elsy))))))))))))))))

barney theme song always....

all my love and support....

hoe you feel better