My brother has many mental issues and at 17 can't read, he's currently at a disability/rehab center trying to get a job. He also has a very violent temper. And well since I'm the one he's "closest" too, he takes all his anger out on me. But the bad part is my parents blame me most of the time and don't really talk to him when he hurts me, especially my mom i think she could care less but yells at me for being so awful to him When i do nothing but sometimes argue and get upset at him. I refuse to hurt him physically because he is my brother. But he will go and hit me, throw stuff at me (including rocks), etc... He also nearly snapped my wrist, threw me out of a tree, and I've gotten hit with a brick to the head. In addition he has threatened to kill me before. He just can't control himself... but i will forgive him because he's my brother... But i wish my parents woud stop blaming me for "making him that way" and stuff. I try to be brave and not conplain and not be afraid of him.

[Skeezyks]

Hi DaX11: I'm sorry you are being treated so badly! I hope you will not mind if I simply ramble on here a bit. I've read a few of your posts now. It just seems as though you are living under such difficult circumstances. I seem to recall reading, in one of your posts, that you cannot see a counselor or therapist because your mother would not permit it(?) But I wonder at what point conditions just become so difficult that you reach out for help anyway.

I don't know where you live, of course, other than that you are apparently in the U.S. Of course, there is a lot of variation among the different states, with regard to what types of services are available. Plus there can be a lot of difference between urban & rural areas as well. Where I live, there are a lot of human services available. That doesn't mean they always do the best job, sadly. But they're there.

Perhaps things have not gotten so bad for you that you're yet willing to defy your mother & reach out for help. I could certainly understand that doing so would feel sort-of like the "atomic bomb" of solutions... one to which you would only want to resort to as a last straw, so to speak. But when I read that you've been hit, had stones thrown at you, knocked out of a tree, hit in the head with a brick, etc. I begin to wonder.

I was the victim of both verbal & physical abuse throughout high school many years ago. Everyone knew what was going on, including my parents. But nobody did anything about it. At one point, one of my abusers got ahold of me & began beating me up, breaking my nose in the process. When he was questioned about it, he claimed I called him a name. So I got blamed for it.

I've read that studies are showing the effects of abuse during childhood extend far into adulthood resulting in increased risks for depression, anxiety, & unemployment, etc. So, from that perspective, it's not simply a matter of knuckling down & gutting it out until you get old enough to be on your own & then everything will be okay. The abuse you're enduring now may, if the studies can be believed, follow you well into adulthood. That said, I hope you take what is happening to you seriously.

You are going to have to decide for yourself what you do, or don't try to do, about your situation at this point. (I could certainly understand if you choose to do nothing. It's a scary proposition to defy your mother & reach out to strangers for help.) However, at the very least, realize that what you're experiencing now is likely to color your future as an adult as well. So as soon as your situation allows, consider doing whatever you need to do to heal from the effects of your current situation. Please take care...

Thanks so much.. and when i showed him i was cutting he later laughed about it and told me no one cares and that im an idiot...

[PumpkinPieHead]

Run for your life Dax. Run to the women's shelter and find resources to help you. Run to the store, just RUN

When i do run xD he chases and catches me. Thats why (i didn't really want to say this) I've had nightmares in the past about someone chasing me (he's in my dreams too) and trying to kill me.... I'd wake up terrified... And well... thats why I'm afraid of people chasing me because it felt like i was running for my life and i have to relive it all again

My heart really goes out to you. My brother is 6 years older than me and was very nasty, violent abusive towards me. He has a deep seeded hatred for me to this day (we are in our 40's) My parents never did anything either, but I don't think they realized just how bad it was until it was too late. When I was 15 and my brother was drug addicted at 21, he threatens to murder my family and I with a gun. My mother called and had the police take him to psychiatric facility. I think it's admirable that you love your brother through this. But please don't minimize the danger you are in or what you've been through. Have you tried sitting your mom down and explaining how this is effecting you? You deserve to feel safe. I am now the mom of 2 boys and they are not allowed to put their hands on each other out of anger ever! (((hugs)))

Thanks so much but its kind of an issue bc my mom doesnt care and blames me for it bc he has mental problems... She wont listen to me...

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry. You don't deserve any of this.

Isn't there anyone who can help you? A teacher, maybe?

You're strong

If you talk about this with a school counselor, they will probably be obligated to report the situation to child protective services. You are living in a dangerous situation and I feel you need the support of an adult right now. At the bare minimum, your mom should have you in counseling. (((Hugs)))