[MtnTime2896]

So, I think I messed up pretty bad about something that's kind of important. As I've posted on here before; I recently began therapy, again. Took me a while to jump back on that horse. Anyway, how I think I messed up is by going to whom I refer to as the "family head doctor". This doctor sees my younger sibling, my mom and has talked with my dad a lot during their family sessions. In fact, the reason I'm seeing him is because my mom had me promise to try again. I told her I'd try a few sessions and see how I feel by the end, but I digress.
This man has seen and talked with my family a long time before he and I ever met. I think his picture of my family is a bit skewed. For example, instead of talking about why I have flashbacks and stuff in the first place; I began telling him bits and pieces of my upbringing and my current relationships with my family. When I told him about some of the things (and I really mean some, I barely touched on any specifics), the doctor was so thrown off and surprised. I guess he always just figured, like everyone does, that my mother was the ultimate cause behind why us kids are so screwed up, because she's the one who's mentally ill; not my dad, right? I think that my dad did what he's always done: Made himself seem like he was this struggling dad trying to keep his family together while his "mentally damaged" ex-wife was tearing it apart. This, right here, is why I can't forgive my dad for any of the **** he's done; because the man is still doing it! He convinces everyone that my mom and myself are just crazy, and he's this saint trying to save us. What's worse, he's really good at it. To the point, after I told the doctor a few things he asked, "Is that what you've experienced, or what your mom has told you throughout the years?"
My mom isn't the manipulative asshole, in this family. Sure, she has a few issues, after what she's been through I can't blame her. But how the **** does that make her the epitome of darkness? She is far from sainthood, but she actually loves her kids and works her *** off to be better for us every day. She's actually a very sweet and stubborn intellectual, but most of all someone who tries to better herself.
The reason I think I messed up by going to this guy is because he was very quick with a diagnoses, medication recommendation and the fact that he thinks this could be altering my perception of my dad. You guys know, the man who never let me sleep, who threw a vacuum at my brother and I because the floor wasn't clean enough, the man who forced me out of the house several times etc.. I've talked about him a lot on here. All based off memory, not how I felt emotionally at the time 'cause to be honest, I didn't feel a thing; I was numb during most events (I had to be). After two sessions; I must be confused, my mom must be crazy and my dad must be an angel.
Sorry for the long post.

[Fuzzybear]

[Onward2wards]

On the bright side, it seems that you are able to see through the fog of skewed perceptions the "family head doctor" has apparently bought into. It's good to question things and see the truth.