[starryprince]

Hello all. I hope everyone is well. I went to the psych ER yesterday because my depression got very bad and it was one of the most invalidating experiences I've ever had. They asked about my abuse history (which involves my grandma being sexually inappropriate with me, but just touching and being molested at the age of 5) and they actually cut me off even though they asked me to talk about it. My grandma is also homophobic and she said, "I don't approve of what you do but I don't dislike you". She's said some disgustingly graphic homophobic things to me and even inquired about my sex life, saying "If you've never had sex then you can't be gay". Anyways, at the ER they asked about my relationships to family members and I said me and my grandma aren't close (for reasons already mentioned) but my mom and I are very close. The doctor said, "Well you don't have to get along with all of your relatives, right?" which I thought wasn't the right thing to say at that moment...

Then another person who knows about me and my grandma said that my grandmother is old and I can't expect much from her.

Am I wrong for feeling angry? It seems like everyone just downplays what my grandma has done and maybe I'm being dramatic. AM I being dramatic? My mom said, "Why does it matter to you if she's homophobic?" And I said, "Because I also live here. If I lived by myself it wouldn't matter but I also live here."

I know I can't expect much but I would like respect. I would like justice. Everything my grandma does, from her homophobia to her sexually inappropriate behavior to her not wanting to confront my other perpetrator who molested me and convincing my mother to not do anything, has been pushed under the rug.

Am I wrong for feeling angry? I feel like a horrible person. I just want to know if I'm wrong...Thank you and sorry for the rant...

[Ocean Swimmer]

You need a plan. An ER isn't equipped to give the support you need.
Depending on your insurance get a good Theripist. A good Pdoc too for meds.
Then you take charge. Make some notes. Tell them these are the topics I'd like to explore.
These issues make me emotional. Angry,sad,depressed,disrespected.
Find support groups free thru organizations like Nami.
You should be happy. If you are being mistreated it's wrong.
The experience you had was unprofessional on their part.
Don't wait till a crisis comes up.

[starryprince]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

You need a plan. An ER isn't equipped to give the support you need.
Depending on your insurance get a good Theripist. A good Pdoc too for meds.
Then you take charge. Make some notes. Tell them these are the topics I'd like to explore.
These issues make me emotional. Angry,sad,depressed,disrespected.
Find support groups free thru organizations like Nami.
You should be happy. If you are being mistreated it's wrong.
The experience you had was unprofessional on their part.
Don't wait till a crisis comes up.

Hi there! I actually see a therapist and a pdoc but my pdoc has given me medications that have given me bad side effects (like getting seizures and ending up in an ambulance because I hit my head on the concrete). I'm not too fond of him. He's supposed to get back to me about medication but he hasn't. I'll see him next week. My therapist isn't too bad but I think I need a new one. She's helped me as much as she can. I also go to a support group for survivors of incest but I may start going to one for depression. Thanks for the advice!

[Ocean Swimmer]

I know it's hard to get the right Pdoc. And medications can be tricky.
If you are proactive your Therapy sessions will help you.
Good for you. Get feeling better. Strive to be happy.

[starryprince]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

I know it's hard to get the right Pdoc. And medications can be tricky.
If you are proactive your Therapy sessions will help you.
Good for you. Get feeling better. Strive to be happy.

Thanks a lot for the support Ocean Swimmer! I may have to get another therapist to help me deal with everything but I am trying hard to get better. Or at least I think I am, heh.

[SearchingforMe]

I think it is terrible the way they cut you off when you were telling them about things they ASKED you about, and to just dismiss it. I hope you find the help you need. Sorry you were treated that way!

Take care

[Hidden1111]

I was an ER nurse for years. I will be direct. The staff are not trained to deal with mental illness. The remarks and subtle judgements, such as, " Well, you can't expect blah blah blah. Bologna! I am on a cell phone and was unable to read the above. ER understands severe crisis. I only will go if I am dragged or have become psychotic. And my psychiatrist agrees It is a sign of our failure to care for and respect the mentally ill when we feel our pain so severely we we can not bare it. They don't know the studies that show emotional pain fires up in the same region of the brain as physical pain. It is PAIN.
YOU ARE NOT WRONG. The system failed you. And it will again, so work with psychiatrist for future plan.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by Hidden1111

I was an ER nurse for years. I will be direct. The staff are not trained to deal with mental illness. The remarks and subtle judgements, such as, " Well, you can't expect blah blah blah. Bologna! I am on a cell phone and was unable to read the above. ER understands severe crisis. I only will go if I am dragged or have become psychotic. And my psychiatrist agrees It is a sign of our failure to care for and respect the mentally ill when we feel our pain so severely we we can not bare it. They don't know the studies that show emotional pain fires up in the same region of the brain as physical pain. It is PAIN.
YOU ARE NOT WRONG. The system failed you. And it will again, so work with psychiatrist for future plan.

I was severely abused at an ER 4 years ago. Those people there are evil. Disgusting people.