[paintingravens]

I've been asking myself this a lot recently. I have an alcoholic uncle who has a history of making me feel uncomfortable. He's slipped his hand under my shirt to rub my lower back less than a year ago and he's slapped my butt when I was at least a sophomore in college, which I never objected to at the time. When I brought it up to my mom, my uncle was more upset about me telling him he was making me uncomfortable than me actually being uncomfortable. He lives behind my grandparents' house in a trailer my dad used to own.

Then I remembered my grandpa and how he used to have me sit on his lap and he put his hand up my shirt to rub my belly and touch my chest when I was a young child, which I never thought anything about as a kid,. It's just that the last time it happened, I was a young teenager, and it suddenly felt really inappropriate in retrospect. I don't know why I didn't say anything about it at the time– maybe it was because, if I'm remembering correctly, he hadn't done that in a long time, so it surprised me when he did it. When I say it out loud it sounds kinda bad. Part of me thinks it was innocent and he didn't mean anything harmful. But now it seems weird and I feel uncomfortable thinking about it. But I sincerely don't know what to think about it. I wasn't raped. I don't know if I'm just blowing things out of proportion because of my anxiety, which has gotten worse since starting therapy (I've had a sudden increase in panic attacks) or if I have valid reason to be concerned at all.


Thanks

[winter4me]

If it made you uncomfortable, it is not OK & if you feel hesitant to tell someone not to do that, or they make you feel uncomfortable for setting boundaries, that is wrong.
Talk to your T. Your feelings are real and deserve exploration/resolution. (((((hug)))))