[gonegirl99]

I've been watching a lot of videos while being back in my "mother's" home. I just turned 25 two weeks ago. I was previously in my "father's" home over the summer. Now I'm here. I've cut off all contact with the "father" and have one more parent to get rid of. I've come to the realization that my parents are both sick. Life felt really normal during my childhood and now I'm seeing why I became the socially awkward sibling and the late bloomer.

I just got a new job after being fired but it's still minimum wage. Can I even get my own place with a minimum wage job? I feel I shouldn't be making minimum wage because I'm this ****ing close to finishing up college. But not if I end up in a shelter.

Learning that there are some people who can go no contact makes me sad. They have their own place, own car, get peace of mind blah blah blah. If I went to a homeless shelter, where would I go from there? After I've at stayed at a shelter long enough, how will I finish up my final semester of college? And where will I live from there on minimum wage? I NEED REAL ANSWERS TO THOSE QUESTIONS.

I get that I'm an adult. Okay! I f*cking get it!. Like who would want to date me or befriend me if I'm still living at home with a sick family. It's not that easy to just "move out". And people will look at me like I'm strange. I rarely come across any other late bloomers. Am I not as strong as I think I am because I'm still living here? My "sister" who is a ***** and my mother who is also one will truly never change. People really never change! Being 25 and more aware of how and why I've been scapegoated and still even living here is an embarrassment.

[Skeezyks]

[Purple Heart]

Hi

It is difficult to answer some of your questions. Do you see a therapist? Don't be hard on yourself or compare yourself to others. You're 25, you're still young. If you're not happy living with mother then you need to be in a place where you're happy.

PH

[gonegirl99]

Originally Posted by Purple Heart

Hi

It is difficult to answer some of your questions. Do you see a therapist? Don't be hard on yourself or compare yourself to others. You're 25, you're still young. If you're not happy living with mother then you need to be in a place where you're happy.

PH

I am trying to find out if there are good free therapy apps that work before paying for one.