[Luminar12010]

Hi all

Im a 39 year old male, and have had problems with anxiety, depression and OCD for as long as i can remember. I have recently in therapy opened up about something that happened when i was 7 or 8. A neighbours boy child, who was a few years older, started becoming sexual with me. At the time i dont really know what i thought was happening, i just went along with it. Since then its always been on my mind, and i think it has affected me in a lot of ways - not least - i cant stand sex. ever since i started having sex as an adult, its never felt right or safe. Bringing this up in therapy was difficult, my therapist named it as abuse. I found that a bit hard to hear, ive always just tried to avoid thinking of it, but been unable to. I feel because i just let it happen, then it cant be abuse. For years after that i became obsessed with sex, it was all i thought about for many years. When i became sexually active though, sex just felt threatening and really unpleasant and unnatural. Just not sure if any of this is "normal" in the circumstances

[Skeezyks]

Hello Luminar: Thanks for sharing your experience. This appears to be your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

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