i am triggered by just being here today. I missed this place so much and i felt i'd come home. i feel rejected and ignored and abandoned. maybe i'm just paranoid as per usual. thankyou muffy for your pm and sabby. maybe i just don't deserve friends - maybe i'm just full of self pity right now, maybe i'll just crawl into a hole and die.

[Christina86]

Just responded to your other post... but I know that coming back after being away for a while can certainly change how you interact with people (been there, done that). I'm sorry you're feeling all that stuff though - doesn't make it easy if it's happened before.

No crawling into a hole and dying. I might not know you very well, but I happen to like having you here.

Take care of yourself, PM me if you want to talk.

thankyou so much canders. i think i just put up this defence thing. i hurt inside and it comes out as aggression. i'm not too aggressive although i feel it just lately. thanks for your support, here for you too anytime, thanks for your words, they mean a lot.

i'll get over it. love, jinny xoxoxoxoxo

[Christina86]

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i hurt inside and it comes out as aggression.

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I seem to do the same thing too... not much fun. You don't have to just "get over it" ... just be who you are.

everyone deserves friends Jinn
(((((((((JINN))))))))))

((((((((((ty muffy))))))))))))

sometimes I just think I'm not very nice. I think I try to hard to be liked by everyone, then i get confused and aggressive and say stupid things and hurt people, but I dont mean it.

jin xoxoxoxoxo

I'm so sorry. I know i t's 9/11.. sorry for being selfish again.

i just missed you all so much. please accept my apologies. my love to everyone. sorry

[debbie_tabor]

I answered your other 2 posts on here before I saw this, not after!

Debbie

[DePressMe]

I am sorry I was not here to support you when you needed me. I do care about you....