I've been feeling quite depressed lately.. I've felt like my life has absolutely no meaning if I have to keep doing things just to please others which is what I've 'always' done.. As a kid, I felt my survival depended on it. By the time I was 20, I had absolutely NO idea who I was because I'd spent my whole life trying to make my mum happy..

But now I've realised that I'm stuck in thinking I'm still just living to please her.. When in fact, I stopped doing that ten years ago! I still haven't lived trying to fulfill my dreams, but I've done what's necessary - what I've needed.. She hasn't liked a lot of those choices - not that I made them to piss her off, I just couldn't care anymore about what she thought.. Living according to her rules and vision was killing me..!!

And now I can go on doing what I need to do to feel good.. I can start fulfilling those dreams of mine!!! I don't need to please anyone anymore in order to survive.. And the right people will want me to be happy My life can actually start to mean something!!!

[carrie_ann]

thanks for sharing this, good to hear, stay strong

[profound_betrayal]

Originally Posted by ShareYourStory

I've been feeling quite depressed lately.. I've felt like my life has absolutely no meaning if I have to keep doing things just to please others which is what I've 'always' done.. As a kid, I felt my survival depended on it. By the time I was 20, I had absolutely NO idea who I was because I'd spent my whole life trying to make my mum happy..

But now I've realised that I'm stuck in thinking I'm still just living to please her.. When in fact, I stopped doing that ten years ago! I still haven't lived trying to fulfill my dreams, but I've done what's necessary - what I've needed.. She hasn't liked a lot of those choices - not that I made them to piss her off, I just couldn't care anymore about what she thought.. Living according to her rules and vision was killing me..!!

And now I can go on doing what I need to do to feel good.. I can start fulfilling those dreams of mine!!! I don't need to please anyone anymore in order to survive.. And the right people will want me to be happy My life can actually start to mean something!!!

Thats the bottom line, above, in bold, red.

When someone isn't happy for you, in your case, its because you will no longer be their to serve THEIR needs. Its often insecurity, fear-based & issues of this kind but this is not you concern. Everyone has to look after themselves eventually.

There are many people who feel the way you do, many who lived life from one "to do" list to the next. Keep moving on with your plans. Life is too short

[profound_betrayal]

So sorry about the errors above. Had to take a call, hit the wrong button & now it's too late to edit

When ... you are no longer there to serve THEIR needs. It's often insecurity & fear-based issues that cause these problems. However, this is not your concern. Keep moving on with your plans. Life is too short

Got to run - hope it's ok this time!!

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I evicted my abusive ex-fiance about eight years ago. Stayed with a player for about a year until I met my now-husband. Been married six years. We're doing great.

I just got tired of being used and abused. The most dramatic impact, though, has been with my daughter. She's learning to trust men again because of her stepdad.