[PreciousQueen]

I have changed a lot from kidnapping from one kidnapping to the first rape, to the second rape. I was told change is okay but not when it is specifically because of the events. Thoughts?
Also, I was thinking about switching usernames. It is something the first rapist called me, but I feel that it helps me feel like it was during their moments he called me that that I felt human. Should I?

Just noticed no one replied to this. I bet there are times you wish you could forget--it probably makes you mad that you can't erase this memory. Maybe changing your username would help you not think of it as often. Time will also help with that but you will still think of it sometimes when you don't want/expect to (hopefully, it will happen less and less often). I am so sorry about that. <<hugs>> I will say a prayer for you. You are more than that memory. It may have changed you but you will go on and grow and change again.

[eyesclosed]

I would it's hard for me to look at now that I know what it means. I can't even imagine what you must feel inside. I hope you get better and just can't really see why this has to happen and hope they are locked up.

[PreciousQueen]

I meant I'm changing it to that name. It somehow became a "power" name for me after being raped.

[eyesclosed]

Sorry I didn't understand I have problems with reading and understanding. I still don't understand Power from a name probably because I never had anything like that happen too me and was trying to be supportive but I don't think I know enough of what you are going through.

[PreciousQueen]

Originally Posted by eyesclosed

Sorry I didn't understand I have problems with reading and understanding. I still don't understand Power from a name probably because I never had anything like that happen too me and was trying to be supportive but I don't think I know enough of what you are going through.

I didn't explain it too well, that was my fault. While he did treat me badly, he did call me his " Precious Queen"...I took it a step further and said well he got that right.

[eyesclosed]

Oh I see now what you mean. Thats good turning it positive. I think this means you know your on the road to recover the best you can. I hope you can find peace with this.