[Rive1976]

I really believe I am becoming unhinged. I cant figure out why I did touched my sister twice and did things to animals up until about 16. I have no memory of being sexually abused but I am taunted day and night for a reason I became the way I did. I obsess hours on end because of it. I know many of you wont understand because you are trying to forget while I am trying to remember. I cant keep going on like this. I cant go on like this.

[Skeezyks]

[mote.of.soul]

Hang in there Dnester, I think it's great that you're doing your best to address your life in the first place. And don't forget, you were a kid at the time as well, still forming, and I guarantee you, a lot of people on here or even in the world, including me, look back at things we did as kids and wish we could take them back. Yes, it is a torment. Anyway, stay strong Dnester, you have a good mind, I think you'll find some resolve to all this.

[Amyjay]

Children are sexual beings. Children are aware of and curious about their own sexuality. It is not uncommon for children to touch each other at all. The animal thing... I doubt that is as uncommon as people might think too. I don't think it necessarily means you were sexually abused. I think you are torturing yourself unnecessarily and looking for things that may not be there. If there was sexual abuse there it will show itself in some form, but I don't think your childhood exploration of sexuality necessarily means you were abused. Children are not asexual. Part of my work is with children and most children touch themselves sexually and are curious about looking at and touching others. Pretty much all children do it until it is shamed out of them by their culture.

What I mean is... it is possible that the only reason you touched your sister and animals is because you were curious about sexual things... an both curiosity and sexuality is normal... even in children.

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by Amyjay

Children are sexual beings. Children are aware of and curious about their own sexuality. It is not uncommon for children to touch each other at all. The animal thing... I doubt that is as uncommon as people might think too. I don't think it necessarily means you were sexually abused. I think you are torturing yourself unnecessarily and looking for things that may not be there. If there was sexual abuse there it will show itself in some form, but I don't think your childhood exploration of sexuality necessarily means you were abused. Children are not asexual. Part of my work is with children and most children touch themselves sexually and are curious about looking at and touching others. Pretty much all children do it until it is shamed out of them by their culture.

What I mean is... it is possible that the only reason you touched your sister and animals is because you were curious about sexual things... an both curiosity and sexuality is normal... even in children.

Well im curious about why my impulses with my sister and animals were anxiety driven. I knew it was wrong i didnt want to do it yet i did it anyway. It was also a repeat of the things that occured with other children. Mainly the reason I want to know if i was s3xually abused is to explain why sexual topics trigger me and why I began to be attracted to younger chikdren. I knew this when i was 11 years old.