I am still wondering about this flashback I had awhile back of my dad forcefully kissing me. Its the only flashback I know for certain is real. The reason I know it was real is because I was just walking outside to smoke, nothing on my mind then bam... snapshot of him kissing me on the mouth in a not so fatherly way. I can still feel the panic I felt but I could not tell my age or what came before he kissed me. I am wondering if the snapshot caused the panic or if it was because of what happened. Does that make sense? Like is that a body memory or just felt panic because I remembered it and may not have felt panic then?
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