[KalanieRose]

I had a horrible home life I suffered physical abuse from my uncle and emotional and verbal abuse from just about every other adult in my life, my mom lost both parents at a very young age so I don’t think she knew how to be a mother , honestly I don’t think she ever even wanted me she would say things like “I’m going to drop you off at an orphanage because I don’t want you anymore or

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she would through me against the wall and hold me by my neck and threaten to punch me , she would whip me with anything she could get her hands on one time because I failed a math test in the 3rd grade she stripped me down and made me lay in a bathtub full of ice water and poured soap in my mouth and she turned of the light she left me there for hours, one time because she decide that I was getting a hunch back she tied to broom sticks in a shape of the cross to my back and made me stand like that for hours in the front yard, another time because I again didn’t do well on a math test in elementary school she threw me off a high stool and started throwing glass cups at me and then told me that I was worthless ,, she would make me kneel on rice she scattered on the floor if she decided I was misbehaving , another time she slammed my face into a door my eye hit the doorknob perfectly and busted my upper lip I was trying to not urinate myself and since I didn’t walk through the door fast enough she decided my head needed a little push

she swears she was a good mother and she acts like the abuse she inflicted on me never happened or that I’m making It up trust me I have the scars to prove the abuse happened m, a couple months ago we got into a heated argument about the abuse and she actually said well I had a bunch of ***** to deal with and I didn’t want to deal with you so I just beat you instead Ijust sat back in my chair and stared at her she said it so nonchalant
like that was a normal reaction , that was the one and only time she ever Acknowledged The abuse ever

[Skeezyks]

Thank you for sharing your pain. I'm so sorry you had to endure all of this abuse. Here's a link to a blog, here on PC, that may be of interest to you:

Knotted: The Mother-Daughter Relationship

I hope being here on PC will be of some comfort & support for you.