surviving attempted rape

Buffy01 · Dec 05, 2017, 06:43 PM

I have very weird memory of something happening to me when I was four year old. When I had tried to explained to my mom what had happen one late night my mom didn't believe me. But my sister said it was a dream that I had and it had never happen she insisted that it didn't happen. As I got older in my early thirty my uncle had attempted to raped me and my sister who I had told didn't believe me because our uncle had never done to her. When he admitted what he had done he had apologized but still blamed me for his action. He had told my sister that I was making him nervous because of how I had talk to him even though he had asked me question. It all started with him asking me if I wore my clothes for him? He would stared at me as if he was undressing me. He said that back in his time in the thirty and forty that how guy act around girls. My sister said that it was my fault because I had talk to him and had made him nervous to be around. My sister had allowed her best friend of twenty years to allow someone who she was babysitting who is severely mentally retarded, severely mentally autism, who is physically, emotionally and sexually abusive toward people. I had survived an attempt raped by a severely mentally retarded teenager during the holidays because of something my sister had allowed her friend who had allowed the mentally ill teenager to do. When I join a support group of survivor I was told that I didn't know what I was talking about.

I still feel dirty. I don't try to anyone to touch me because of what had happen to me.

PreciousQueen · Dec 05, 2017, 06:54 PM

I'm so sorry that had happened to you. I think that whoever said that in the support group should not have said that. Attempted rape and rape are a little different, but still very traumatic. You have every right to seek support and heal.
I believe you.

Buffy01 · Mar 23, 2018, 12:03 AM

I had a registered sex offender on my street before I moved away. Who been release from prison. The police sent out flyers informing everyone what to watch out for. I went to a friend who is a cop in another state who is familiar with our laws my attack fall under sexual assault. The girls who had attack me one claims to be a victim herself. The other girl support her as well. I don't think she was ever a victim.

Buffy01 · Mar 23, 2018, 12:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Buffy01

I had a registered sex offender on my street before I moved away. Who been release from prison. The police sent out flyers informing everyone what to watch out for. I went to a friend who is a cop in another state who is familiar with our laws my attack fall under sexual assault. The girls who had attack me one claims to be a victim herself. The other girl support her as well. I don't think she was ever a victim.

It nice to have someone to believed me

Wild Coyote · Mar 23, 2018, 05:12 AM

Have you been able to process this in therapy?

You might want to seek out a supervised support group, where people validate one another.

Wishing you Inner Peace and healing.

WC

Buffy01 · Mar 30, 2018, 11:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Have you been able to process this in therapy?

You might want to seek out a supervised support group, where people validate one another.

Wishing you Inner Peace and healing.

WC

Tried looking for therapy I just haven't found any yet. Left some message never heard back over a year ago.

Buffy01 · Mar 16, 2023, 07:14 PM

I am considering reading survivors of sexual abuse

Marie123 · Mar 17, 2023, 06:20 AM

You did nothing wrong. I have heard that RAINN is a good support.

Buffy01 · Mar 17, 2023, 04:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Marie123

You did nothing wrong. I have heard that RAINN is a good support.

I did call them and they didn't know what to tell me to do because of the lack of resources I have in my area.

Buffy01 · Jul 02, 2023, 09:22 PM

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Originally Posted by PreciousQueen

I'm so sorry that had happened to you. I think that whoever said that in the support group should not have said that. Attempted rape and rape are a little different, but still very traumatic. You have every right to seek support and heal.
I believe you.

One of the trolls on Kati Morton website and their discord : had admitted that she was in the wrong

another had claimed it happened to them twice and was very upset with me :eek

Buffy01 · Jul 02, 2023, 09:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Have you been able to process this in therapy?

You might want to seek out a supervised support group, where people validate one another.

Wishing you Inner Peace and healing.

WC

I have now found a therapist and processing my trauma