[BlueStar]

I have these memories of being sexual abused or maybe it was just experimenting, but I can't remember what is true. It just seems like a big dream or white wash of memories. But then again who would make all this up? so there has to be some truth behind it.

Everything that is "dreamy" happened when I was young like 4 or 5 (I think) and I'm 22 now. I just wish I could remember the truth so I know that i'm being mad at him for a reason and not just my made up stories. Like have you ever woke up from one of those dreams that have been so real and been angry with someone for something they did in your dreams? Its kind of wierd for the other person. Its not like I would be ready to confront him about anything or if I ever would let anyone in my family know.

[sabby]

Hi BlueStar,

I'm wondering if you are in therapy right now. A good T would be able to help you figure out what is going on. Many times people repress memories of abuse and it doesn't manifest until we are adults. I believe that it happens this way because our brains have grown and matured and we are in a better place to be able to deal with those memories than when we were a child.

Wishing you well ((((((((BlueStar)))))))))))


sabby

[BlueStar]

No I currently am not in therapy, and wouldn't be sure how to or where to look or if I would be able to talk one on one because one on ones are very difficult for me.

((((((((((((bluestar)))))))))))))

i agree with Sabby. There are group therapies available, one on ones are hard but do help so much. Keep reaching out and writing here too, wishing you well, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo