[mtd]

His birthday is in two weeks, one of those who brutalized me as a child -- there were 2 of them, he was the main one. I want to f#@! up the birthday somehow. I could never come up with anything legal, so I haven't done anything about it in the past. But this year I really want to do something ...

... like send his wife a description of what he did to me, how he bound me, how he smacked me when I bit him, how he threatened me with a gun so I wouldn't tell ...

I don't think this one is going to go by without me doing something. I don't really believe in revenge or retaliation, but this birthday feels different somehow. Maybe it's because he's getting ready to go be some missionary this summer, acting like he's all holy ... I can't stand the hypocrisy.

Maybe it's time.

mtd

my heart aches for you... your pain...
my heart reasonates with anger with you..

"he's getting ready to go be some missionary"

it is such a hypocrisy.. when our abusers "live" a life - that looks like they are a pillar.. of society.. (mine a band instructor)...

you want to scream and scream... there uglyness.. so that others in their life know... know.. what they are...

please, please be careful - you are valuable... not him.. do not do anything that would hurt you.. your life..

freewill..... ((((((mtd))))))

[Fuzzybear]

This makes me think of an abuser from my childhood.
Who made such a good pretense of being a pillar of society.
Only those unfortunate enough to get "close" to that person saw what they were.
I know the truth, and I have the scars to prove it.

mtd i am so sorry for your pain. this also reminds me of my abuser who was a pdoc and had everyone eating out of his hand. He was well respected or so we all thought please be careful .... you are so much more important, i understand your hurt and anger .... this person is a hypocrite and a liar, where does he think he's getting in the end?

sending gentle hugs and love and care to you ..... please think about YOU first. hugs, Jin xoxoxoxoxoxo