We neva gunna recuver, I dun see da point in tryin.

How we supposta explore feelins when we jus kids?
How we supposta say we dun deserve it when we probly did? Dey said it was our fault.
How we supposta trust anyone? I bet eveyone hate us. We culd delete n go away n it wuld dun matta at all becuz we stoopid n no one like us.

It just gunna happen again n again becuz no matta what we do anuder bad person will come into our life n hurt us. We dun matta n peeple dun undastan. Shuld ignore us becuz we stoopid n only ting we good for is hurtin.

We shuld go away becuz dat wuldnt matta eider. Peeple will jus hurt us anyways. Stoopid us. Dey win becuz we tired. Peeple gunna come hurt us again I tink, becuz no one care.



-leo

[mtd]

I understand the sentiment. I often feel that way, very deeply. I know the despair all too well. I knew it too well the times I tried to kill myself and all the other times I have been self-destructive.

But I struggle against the despair anyway because I believe I am a little bit better each day I take a step in a positive direction, towards being the person I want to be and deserve to be, despite my destructive past.

And I have met people who do care and do understand, despite all those I meet who do not care even to try to understand.

I'm reminded of the first time I acknowledged my abusive past in a public place. One person who was there walked up to me afterwards and said simply, "That took guts." He understood. And I felt supported by those three words.

I was silenced once, with a knife and a gun and ropes, intimidated into not telling anyone about the repeated raping I endured. Never again. Today I will stumble forward and I will fall on my face, but I will continue to get up and stumble forward some more. And with that, I hope others who have suffered like me know that I care, and that I am determined to have hope.

be well,

mtd

[Blue93]

(((((((((((((((vince))))))))))))) (((((((((((leo)))))))))))

you matter. you are not worthless. we definitely dont hate you. Understand your feelings but you are worth so much more. always willing to listen... I really DO care

[katheryn]

((((((((((vince,leo,fox))))))))))))

you are worth all my time and effort i put into talking to you
those ppl that were bad to you are wrong you are not stupid you are not worthless, you are kind caring person

who would tease trm about liverpool if you delete

(((((((((((((leo,griffe,fox)))))))))))))

if you go treasure n jin will be sad please don't go .... we love you jin/treasure xoxoxoxoxo

we stoopid i sarry if we annoyin eveybody
uder peeple hate ys becuz we stoopid n dis all our fult

-leo

[Blue93]

it all isnt your fault
nor does anyone hate you
im glad we got to talk a bit in chat today
hope you are gonna come back soon!

dun fel gud today we can fel daddy bein bad n doin bad tings to us n it dun stop we tired of dis n it never get bettah n now we see why vince alwuys try ta end himself

daddy right we shuld go away forevah becuz he win we giv up we tired of feelin him n seein it n it happenin ovah n ovah again why boder tryn when we dun mattah?

we shuld jus cut n get dis over wit we dun want dis no more we dun like da bad peeple who do da bad tings becuz we can feel it n it dun STOP wanta go away it dun mattah. it dun get out of our headz n it dun get out.

we shuld go away n stop breetin n nevah come bak becuz dis too hard n we no can take dis n it dun mattah. dey win daddy win bruddah win all dem win.




-leo

[katheryn]

((((((((((((griffe)))))))))))))
daddy was wrong you matter

i can feel dem burnin me dey dun stop burnin me wit da hot stick dey got frum da fire
dey burn me n do da bad tings i can feel it it dun go away so we need go away furevah so da pain go away
bad bad bad we dun mattah we shuld go away furevah furevah

-leo

[Blue93]

(((((((((leo, vince, fox))))))))))))))))
they are the bad people
you guys are who matter
i hope you all feel better soon