[SweetCrusader]

I already posted this in creative corner, but I thought it was fitting for this forum, and I know a lot of people read in here, but not in there. So I wanted to share it here, too.

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I have the power now
I will tell what I will tell
I can be shrouded in mystery
I can tell you to go to h*ll

I keep the secrets now
And nobody can tell them to you
I will shove it in your face
If that’s what I want to do

You cannot circle my school anymore
If I want to, I can hide where I live
Nobody will inform on me
There’ll be no new info to give

I have a person in my life now
That I can trust to not to betray me
She doesn’t tell you anything
I can tell her everything safely

If I wanted to, I could get away
and you’d never find me again
I have the power to rule my own life
You will never oppress me again

I can have my anger at you
I can let it well up inside
I can let it spring forth
And I don’t have to hide

I can say the things that I feel about you
I can be angry as h*ll
You can’t laugh at me anymore
You won’t even be able to tell

I will be mad and you will not know
I will be furious at you
I will not be laughed at
I’ll know I’M smarter than YOU.

You can’t go through my things anymore
I can lock them from you
You can’t shove yourself into my life
I am free of you

I can be angry, I can say it
You can’t beat me down
I can tell any truth I want to tell
You can’t hit me now

If I want to call you an *sshole, I will
I don’t give a d*mn what you say
This is my life, and I’m living it free
Your little powerless girl went away

You are not all-knowing
You can’t see me right now
You can’t pry into my privacy
I’m keeping you out.

I have spaces you can't enter
I have places inside and out
Free of your presence, free of your hurting me
You are not welcome, get out.

I have safe places to go
Where nobody can see me at all
I can lock doors and be free of your eyes
And I think I will.

So ***** off.

[lenjan]

Wow, Angela. All I can say is -- I hope someday I can get to the point you are clearly at.

Big hugs to you.

Candy

[SweetCrusader]

Sweetie, I've got a LONG way to go. But it felt very good to assert myself. Mostly I wrote this to remind myself that I'm out of the situation and am now an adult who is free to set boundaries.

Felt very nice to write!!!

Angela

[ktp]

((((((((angela))))))))))

***patting you on the back*** very good job at asserting yourself! What a great expression of pent up emotion, it must've felt empowering to write it.

Hope you're having a great holiday,
Kimberly.

[bethannaTN]

((((Angela))))) you GO!! Wow, I'd love to blow this up in huge letters and put it on MY bedroom door right now!! It was SUCH a good thing for me to read this morning! I am sick to death of him thinking he can just crawl into my head and tell me what my motives are and why I do certain things - - and of course all of my motives are ALL about HIM!

Today I will not be home with this man - Thanksgiving Day.
Today I will go and go and go and spend some time with myself appreciating those motives and actions I do for MYSELF. To care for MYSELF. Grrrrrr. . .and spend some time calming down.

<3
Beth

[nothemama8]

{{{{{{{Beth}}}}}}
Go girl
Angie

[SweetCrusader]

((((((Beth, Kimberly, and Angie))))))

[allautumn]

WOOOO! *high fives you*
Reading that felt REALLY GOOD! I was like "Yeah!" and pounded a fist on the desktop
Thank you for posting your poem, it reads like strength, not being afraid any more, and validating your emotions. Way to go! Keep writing.

[SweetCrusader]

Why thank you allautumn! I don't believe we have met before. So welcome to psychcentral (belated). Will you tell me about your avatar? It has caught my interest!