[Jesster13]

A few days ago , I saw my dad.
It has probably been something like 5 years now.. maybe 3.
Well , the reason I have posted this is because..

Well , he abused me and my family (my sister , mother etc)
Physically as well as verbally. ( a number of times)

My mother divorced him , and so they did not live together.
So I saw my father most weekends..
Until one day. We had a afternoon of shopping but when we came home , we had to go to our grandmother's straight away. My father wanted to stay around for some odd reason... but we HAD to go now. (it was something important I can't remember) so my sister and I got out of dad's car and went in our mother's.
Mother went in the car and just about to shut the car door until my father 'pounced' on her and started punching her. He was shouting things at her like '' how many hits until your dead''. Mother was bleeding everyware but managed to record this on a tape. My sister un-did the window of the car and tried to get out but she couldn't and got stuck. the childlocks were on so I couldn't get out either.

Suddenly he got of my mother and drove 'maniacally' away.
My mother had to be in hospital for two days and had to have stiches.

We brought this to court , and now my father is not allowed to hurt ANYONE.

But while court was on , my father never attended.
He finally had no choice but to.

So now a few years later he 'bribes' us with gifts saying ''Oh I really want to see you''

I was kind of wanting to see him until I saw him on Saturday.
I had never been scared in my life that much..
I was shaking In terror.

So I decided NOT to see him. That is my choice. And no one elses.

[Kiya]

=( lot of things there. hope you are safe. kiya

[multipixie9]

Abused people get a kind of radar. It is like your intuition gets ramped up high.

Pay Attention to that small voice inside that warns you. It will help and maybe even save your life.

I think you were really smart to NOT go when you were scared. I wish It wasn't bad like it is, but I'm glad you took care of yourself.

The few times I ignored my radar - something bad happened (for me at least).

Hang in there and take care of you.

Leslieann and the Pixies

[Jesster13]

Thank you

I feel so much better

[skeksi]

It's your choice whether to see him. YOU are in control. I'm glad you are able to make such strong choices!

I have to see my abuser at family events, and I get scared, too. You're not alone with that.

[Fuzzybear]