[RozG]

Trigger icon on this coz it's heavy ok? So please DO NOT read if in bad place...please DO NOT read if trigged by child abuse or mention of knives ok?












Ok, it don't matter why this memory is so hard in my head tonite...to me it just matters that i can't handle it and i know i'm at risk of doing something stupid over it if i don't "scream" it out!

The mention of knives in relation to children....brought this hurt back up....from when i was a toddler...weak it still makes me cry and scared...but my dumbass father tried to kill me with a knife when i was toddler...only my birth Mom stepping between saved me. I was a toddler ffs and he SERIOUSLY wanted to stab me to death for being devils daughter, satans spawn, born evil.

Sorry but i still cry when that memory surfaces....all i ever done wrong was be born to a sick %#@&#! father for god sakes.



That bastard gave me every torture in the book from birth to eleven for what? And no offense to anybody but when i say torture i mean it! Anybody here ever seen movie called Sybil? No offense again but i didn't totally get that movie when i first saw it coz....the things that bastard done were worse than that movie.

and scuse my language tonite but... %#@&#! it!!!

[reddevil]

((((((((((Roz)))))))))))

You have every reason in the world to hurt.

You haven't done anything wrong. I'm so glad your birth mother was there to save you.

[darkrunner]

((((((((Roz)))))))))

You didn't deserve what he did to you. I'm sorry you are hurting.
I wish I could say something to make you feel better.
I hear your pain.



kt

[RozG]

((((((((((red)))))))))) you make me cry that you care and understand ty.

[RozG]

((((((((ktgirl))))))))

it helps to know you read and cared ty.

[Scott902]

((((((((Roz)))))))))

That can be very scary. It scares me now...
I'm glad you seemed to have a great Mom to do what she did.
I hope you can work out your feelings, and feel better.

[MINIME]

Im sorry Roz.....I kinda know what you feel like. I have some of the same kinda memories. It sucks. It sucks and not the good kinda sucks like the vacuum but sucks like its crappy.

[missboots]

I am so sorry this happened to you!

[pachyderm]

(((((Roz is a great person!)))))

(((((((((((((((((Roz))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

holding your hand thru the bad always ...... love you Kerry xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[RozG]

ty ((((Mike)))) memories can be a bit overwhelming sometimes is all.

[RozG]

((((((((Minime)))))))) ty for reading and caring, hope you're okay tonite yourself?

[RozG]

ty ((((missboots))))

[RozG]

((((((pachyderm)))))) i happen to think you're a great person too.

[RozG]

((((((((((((Kerry))))))))))))

ty for always being here for me, know i'm here for you too.

[I_WMD]

... Wipes the tear from the little childs face .....

Pulls chair out from the table and makes sure is safe and comfy .
Takes own seat .
And sits to sup at this table ,,,,, Built STRONG ,,, and mending through >>> survival .

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{~ ROZ ~}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}.

WMD.

[RozG]

((((((wmd)))))) strange you chose table and chair coz...i was at the table when this happened...couldn't defend myself coz my Mom had me still in my high chair

but that's ok coz you just made table and chair safe ty....new memories over old right? you sat at table with me now too right?

[I_WMD]

Yea Roz ,,, I sit with ya >>> NOW !!!! ..... New Memory.

[xylia]

((((((((((((((((RozG)))))))))))))))))))))

I feel so sad for you that this happened. I just don't know what to say. To even think that someone would want to hurt a young child like that is sad and unthinkable, yet it happens everyday. You are a sweet, caring person and you deserved and still deserve to be loved.

Many hugs to you.

[RozG]

(((((((((xylia)))))))) Thank You...i have always thought i genuinely deserve no love...nothing good...maybe that is why all my care has always gone to others?

Thank You for caring and much love and hugs to you too.

[multipixie9]

(((((Roz)))))

I'm sorry, there is no excuse for ANY adult to treat a small child so badly. There is a special hell for those who torture helpless beings.

I believe God wants to help us heal, even those of us who were mistreated by evil people who said God wanted them to hurt us.

Roz, I do believe you can heal and I'm sorry your pain is bad tonight.

Hugs,

Leslieann and the pixies