[btinternet]

Ok, so I need to get this off my chest and know that I'm not on my own with just my crazy thoughts. I have my first therapy session tomorrow and I'm so anxious about how it's going to go and what I'm going to have to talk about. I still find it so hard to actually say the words....even type the words, that I was abused by my Father. I've buried this deep down for so long and I'm scared about how this is going to affect me. The first time I acknowledged it to myself I hit a downward spiral and got lost in my own world.

I feel like there is so much that I have kept hidden from myself. Is it worth going through this therapy in the first place? I don't have a support structure around me to help me focus my thoughts on other things or to call when I can't cope with it all.

I feel so down just now. Maybe things will seem a little more positive tomorrow...???

[bchlyn]

the first session usually is pretty much a get to know each other... to help build trust... it took me a long time before i could admit much of the abuse... but my t took my hand and lead me gently... do push yourself go at the pace you feel safe... lyn

[multipixie9]

Lou,

Yes, it is worth going to therapy. It takes time, but it really does help free us up from the past.

Not everyone has a good support system. You may have to search for support. People are kind and helpful here. So, you do have one form of support.

Wounds untended get infected and make a person sick. I know you get the metaphor's point. We truly are as sick as our secrets.

I went through a lot of abuse in my family, physical, sexual and emotional. I know you have a lot of pain. Just take the therapy thing one appointment at a time and if this one doesn't feel like the right one, then try another until you find a workable fit.

I wish you all the best!

Leslie

[MINIME]

It is worth it but it will be hard. It will be the best thing you can do for yourself.