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Sep 30, 2008, 06:02 PM
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Hi, my dad died in 1965, he was shot down in Cambodia. My mom remarried a real @sshole. He severly beat me and my two sisters. Well mom too. I was about 8 yrs. old and started cutting. At the age of nine or ten they sent me to a mental instuion in Miamia, Fl. There I was raped and shocked with a cattle prog. This is very hard to write. After I was there two yrs. the state of Fl. shut them down. So I came home to more insanity. One time my sis. was playing with her food cause she didn't like chinnesse food. He said some crap about hungry people and she said send it to them. He picked her upby the throat and started punching her in the face. Real nice guy,huh! So I started running away and really self medicatting with drugs. I have many broken relationships, lost a damn good wife. When I would get high I would push the envolope. I am surprised I didn't die. I have been clean for two yrs. except a few slipps with pot. There was a lot more abuse than that, but it really started to bother me. Any how I am sure you get the just of it. I wish I could forget but it keeps haughting me. Some times I feel so @uck up. Well thanks for letting me dumb. Take care, Greg
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Sep 30, 2008, 07:15 PM
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 Greg, I appreciate your Dad's caring and giving service. One of my brothers was in that war. I'm sorry about your Miami experience. There are evil people in many places. You've had a tough life. Now, as an adult, you are beginning to heal. I salute you!
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Sep 30, 2008, 09:40 PM
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(((((((Gregg)))))) What terrible experiences you have had! I'm sorry your dad had to give his life for ours, and because of that you were thrown into such chaos and horribleness. I commend you for knowing you needed to get clean and doing it. What a long way you've come! You are so strong to have done all the positive things you have.
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Oct 01, 2008, 11:25 AM
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i'm sorry about your dad, and everything you've been through, greg.
i can relate to some of it, used to be a self-medicator as well. glad you opened up to us here. i appreciate it. hope it helped you a bit to say it. safe hugs, twilight.
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Oct 01, 2008, 12:05 PM
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I am sorry that that happened to you Greg......
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Oct 02, 2008, 08:04 AM
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Thanks for the kind words, the worst I think is the nightmares and sometimes I lash out at people for no or little reason. I hate that part of me. I know it is the hurt little kid in me actting out. I still hate it though, I lose so many freinds that way. Some little thing and I am thru the roof like a spoiled brat. So for know I will be a loner, because it isn't fair to the other people when I flip. Then when I can learn to feel the feeling, and no one even know, then I think it would be a good time to be a social bug. Does this make any sense? Take care, Greg
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Oct 02, 2008, 10:45 AM
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Quote:
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Oct 05, 2008, 06:04 PM
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(((greg)))
ur not lashin out for no reason.. ur hurting greg.. do u go to therapy?? u need to talk with someone about this and work thru it.. u can get to understand ur responses to these horrible things that happened to you.. and work on news ways to deal with it... (((greg)) we are all here for you.. |
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Oct 05, 2008, 08:00 PM
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greg,
i understand a lot of what you say, my home was a war-zone where there were lots of battles and scars and wounds that seem to last a really long time."The only way out, is through". there is help out here, but you gotta do your part of the work. people can and will help, but it can be lonely and tuff. there are some good recovery programs for sick family dynamics we learn as kids ; we can get help to change how we think, speak and act. You can change, in spite of any of the rotten breaks you got. i'm speaking from experience even though my family horror did not look just like yours. i wish you all the best. leslie and the pixies
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Oct 05, 2008, 08:05 PM
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greg
I totally agree with ((bunnies)) post........ anger comes from somewheres......you were hurt and still are take care and knwo you matter here muffy |
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