[purplebutterfly]

I try to forget but it comes back...why me why did i let it happen...........im a piece of **** and i deserved it all- im a bad bad person

[cantstopcrying]

You didn't LET anything happen to you. NOTHING that was done to you was your fault--in any way at all. NOT AT ALL. Please believe that, let the hurt and pain out through tears, not through cutting or guilt or self-blame. You are a wonderful human being that had horrible things done to you. It isn't your fault.

[MINIME]

You didnt deserve that. You are not a bad person. I have a bad personometer in my brain and alarms go off when I meet a bad person and it hasnt gone off with you. So you have to trust the bad personometer ok?

[reddevil]

I agree with Can'tstopcrying.

It was never, ever, ever your fault.

I don't think that experiences like that can ever be forgotten.. but we can learn to cope with the memory, at least a little bit.

You are a good person.

[50guy]

Your thoughts are mine exactly at times. I wonder why me....did I wear a sign that said "abuse me" or did I somehow invite it, like it, encourage it. I must have been a bad person and deserved it.

I am now seeking therapy to deal with it, the abuse, and my BPD, which I now know was cause by it.

My point is, you can get past this and you did nothing to cause it. You didn't ask for it and you are not a bad person because of what happened. The abuser(s) is the bad person and they will get their just deserves. I feel for you and empathize with you. You can overcome this, you are a survivor.

Try to think on the good things about life and all that the future has to offer.

Good Luck,

[multipixie9]

Dear purplebutterfly,

i hear the thoughts from inside and the feelings that go with it. You are bad, it's all your fault, how could you, you will never learn...

Just because i hear some words with bad feelings attached does not make them truth.

Truth says: You are a person. All persons have value. You did not ask to be abused, nor deserve abuse. Abuse is not your fault. You have blue eyes and fair skin, you did not want to have sex with those people they gave you no choice. You like to read and cats are your favorite pets. You never did anything that made you worthy of being beaten and sceamed at...you can recover from the pain and horror. Life can be good again. You are not a bad person - you just hurt a lot.

Please: Challenge your thoughts and believe truth not abuse.

No child ever deserved any kind of abuse ever, ever, ever, ever.

Leslie