[crazy1]

I really have no support other than my Therapist and one other lady. I cant talk with AA about this stuff becuase they think im not working the steps right. I am scared becuase not only am I a incest survivor so are my girls and I am afraid I will not be liked. I didn't deal with my abuse and thus it was repeated and now my girls suffer. I divorced after 20 years of mental physical and sexual abuse. He still looks like the good guy and I still look like the wack. I need people terrible

[ujaz]

Abusers often have the look of an angel to the public who never see the dark ugliness that they are. Hang in there & know the best revenge is to keep it together & not sucumb to it all letting the asshole win.

[Sannah]

C, are you in therapy too? I'll be your friend ....

[sadandtired:(]

Everyone thought my father was wonderful on the outside ... they hide it so well ...

for you

[crazy1]

Originally Posted by Sannah

C, are you in therapy too? I'll be your friend ....

This is really hard everytime I go to certain AA meetings I feel like everyone is laughing at me. They don't believe what I am saying or in what I am trying to do. Thank you for talking to me.

[CedarS]

Originally Posted by crazy1

This is really hard everytime I go to certain AA meetings I feel like everyone is laughing at me. They don't believe what I am saying or in what I am trying to do. Thank you for talking to me.

Your therapist might have some good ideas on this. If there are some AA meetings that at least feel neutral, maybe you can attend those, and not go to the ones that feel bad.

You deserve caring support.

[crazy1]

Thank you for your time and for talking to me.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by crazy1

This is really hard everytime I go to certain AA meetings I feel like everyone is laughing at me. They don't believe what I am saying or in what I am trying to do.

Is this really what is going on or are you replaying your past in your mind and playing your "role"?

[Simcha]

Originally Posted by crazy1

This is really hard everytime I go to certain AA meetings I feel like everyone is laughing at me. They don't believe what I am saying or in what I am trying to do. Thank you for talking to me.

((((((crazy1))))))

I think you should discuss the possibility of stopping this particular AA group with your therapist, and tell her what you told us. Your T should be able to tell you if your perception is accurate or if you are misinterpreting events.
Incest isn't something you have to talk about in AA. Some things should only be discussed in a supportive atmosphere where you feel safe, with a trustworthy, helpful person.

If you stop this AA group, there are likely other AA groups in your area.
When do you see your T again?

[pooby]

Originally Posted by crazy1

I really have no support other than my Therapist and one other lady. I cant talk with AA about this stuff becuase they think im not working the steps right. I am scared becuase not only am I a incest survivor so are my girls and I am afraid I will not be liked. I didn't deal with my abuse and thus it was repeated and now my girls suffer. I divorced after 20 years of mental physical and sexual abuse. He still looks like the good guy and I still look like the wack. I need people terrible

im new here .But u can never have to many friends and id love to be yours if u need one . But keep your head up and stay strong. Show your girls how they can be strong to this all to their looking up to u to guide them and u need yourself to make it through this too dont let him win .

[multipixie9]

i have to say that i wish you had a kinder user name here. it is not crazy for you to be hurting from incest - it is a terrible emotinal wound, one i share.

i too went to a 12 step program and they were good but had their limits. and there are good groups, healthy groups and bad groups, sick groups.

seek help for these issues that hurt you, find support groups for incest and abuse. i've had to find different places to help me because i've had a lot of painful hurts in life. if this AA group makes you feel like they do not respect you they are wrong - NOT you.

i am willing to be supportive and friendly, like others here too. talk to us, listen to us when we need support and lets all help each other. i wish the best for you.

leslieann