[myoasis89]

my niece was a year older than me and we were hanging out together...I"m not sure if this is considered sexual abuse...but we were about maybe 10 or 11 she started hugging and kissing me sexually...basically dry humping...I'm embarrassed to say it..but at that time I really enjoyed it...now I look back and wonder if it has affected me negatively....with my bf I let him have sex with me...and then I freak out and am like I don't want to do this...this is wrong...and I don't want to get pregnant....It's not that I odn't enjoy sex it's just something that is foreign to me I guess...I dunno if I ahve problems...but he says I sound like a broken record player....I let him do it...and then say no...i can't do this it's wrong...then we do it..and I say the same things...I think this also might have to do with that my sister got pregnant when she was younger and now lives on welfare...my niece also got pregnant at the age of 19...I'm relaly confused...is it normal for girls to practice kissing together...because I remember my friends doing that when we were 12...there were about 5 of us...and we dared each toher to french kiss and everything

[Rhapsody]

Yes... children playing doctor / house together or asking to see each others private parts is very normal and it happens between little girls just like it happens with little boys & girls.... and there is nothing to be a shame of if this happened with you and another girl when you both where just innocent children learning and exploring.

[Sannah]

Myo I don't think that these earlier explorations have affected you. What I hear that could be affecting you though is having sex when you don't want to. Now this is a big deal! It goes against your needs and your feelings and this is never good. You enjoy it but you have guilt and fear getting pregnant? I think that it would be good if you can understand your feelings about this.