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Old Feb 17, 2009, 08:20 PM
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its getting hard to sleep at night and i am so afraid he is going to find me. please talk. i need the conversation.
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Old Feb 18, 2009, 12:50 AM
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((((((((((((Erin)))))))))))))) I'm sorry I wasn't around.

Breathe. Nightmares are NOT real. You're safe. Find ways to ground yourself, something you can hold onto - even a stuffed animal, or play some sort of soothing music or have a meditation tape for bad nights. I'm sorry... nightmares suck, a lot.
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Old Feb 18, 2009, 01:02 PM
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Hippie, have you received any help for this?
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Old Feb 18, 2009, 05:31 PM
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thank you.
and no i havent recieved any help. because im ashamed of what people will think/say if they find out. i want help. badly. but since im in highschool, i cant afford a T and im too scared to tell my parents.and school counselers are no help.
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 12:54 PM
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Why are you too scared to tell your parents that you need therapy?
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 04:29 PM
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Why are you too scared to tell your parents that you need therapy?
im afraid that they will blame me for what happened, they wont believe me, or they will tell me i need to suck it up. i just dont want them to know what happened to me because im embarrassed
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 04:31 PM
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What makes you think that they will blame you, not believe you or tell you to suck it up? I'm sorry that you are embarrassed. You need to reach out and get help. Can you just start out by telling them that you need to go to therapy because you need to talk?
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 04:34 PM
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What makes you think that they will blame you, not believe you or tell you to suck it up? I'm sorry that you are embarrassed. You need to reach out and get help. Can you just start out by telling them that you need to go to therapy because you need to talk?
i really wish i could but i everytime i get the guts to do it i i cant.
my parents are the kind of people that would say that stuff. they arent that understanding because they dont know how to handle things like this. plus we cant afford it.
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 04:42 PM
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they arent that understanding because they dont know how to handle things like this.
Did they not handle something well in the past that makes you say this? There is public counseling. Could you look into that and just check it out?

Here is a website http://www.state.sc.us/dmh/
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 04:49 PM
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Did they not handle something well in the past that makes you say this? There is public counseling. Could you look into that and just check it out?

Here is a website http://www.state.sc.us/dmh/

thank you i will deffinately look into this.
its not that there has been some huge life altering thing in my life that my parents have responded badly to, its just that they refuse to see the bad side of life and what can happen.
when my brother was diagnosed with leukemia, my mom hit the ceiling, not blaming it on him, but on her self mainly and went into this depression that lasted for 3 years.
im afraid to tell her because im mainly afraid for her.
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Old Feb 19, 2009, 05:01 PM
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when my brother was diagnosed with leukemia, my mom hit the ceiling, not blaming it on him, but on her self mainly and went into this depression that lasted for 3 years.
im afraid to tell her because im mainly afraid for her.
Now the real reasons come out........... Needing therapy and having leukemia are two different things.
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Old Feb 20, 2009, 12:12 AM
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Now the real reasons come out........... Needing therapy and having leukemia are two different things.
i know but i really just dont want to lose my mom again. i would rather be miserable and keep it to myself than to see her or anyone else for that matter hurt because of something that happened to me and that they had no control over.
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Old Feb 20, 2009, 01:20 PM
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She's your mom, though! Children are supposed to go to their parents with issues! How long has she been recovered from this last depression?
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Old Feb 20, 2009, 04:15 PM
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She's your mom, though! Children are supposed to go to their parents with issues! How long has she been recovered from this last depression?
about a year and a half.
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Old Feb 20, 2009, 04:43 PM
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My vote is for you to tell your parents that you need help.............
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Old Feb 21, 2009, 10:06 PM
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i want ro believe me i do but i just dont think i can
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Old Feb 23, 2009, 10:29 AM
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Old Feb 24, 2009, 12:01 PM
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its getting hard to sleep at night and i am so afraid he is going to find me. please talk. i need the conversation.
erin
i am having nightmares also but now my nightmares are about the abuse my mom did to me which was verbal and physical
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Old Feb 24, 2009, 06:03 PM
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i am having nightmares also but now my nightmares are about the abuse my mom did to me which was verbal and physical
i am really sorry that your mother did that to you. mine are caused by a guy i had just met who stalked me and raped me repeatedly. it sucks and i know how you feel. im here if you ever need to talk!
erin
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Old Mar 02, 2009, 06:24 PM
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its getting hard to sleep at night and i am so afraid he is going to find me. please talk. i need the conversation.
erin
i hav e night mares all the time and im awake every 2 hours if not for them then its the pain i have in my spine.i wake up my hair is soaking wet and i dont breathe rite.
they say i have sleep apnea. i dream and im seeing my self as he is hitting me and i no whats coming and i stop breathing i have painc attacks when i do sleep and wallk up couffing and all wet from them..i cant get this stufff outta my head.
some when i posts some thing i feel as though its going to outta space here.
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